Daily Diary – May 31 2010

Butterflies. I love them.

Last night, after I wrote up my post, we got dressed up and went out to Marissa’s birthday party. It was the first time we’d been out and not going to a movie in a long time so I decided to try on this dress I’d bough before I had David that I loved. Simple, light, black dress. It fit like a glove. Well, it was a bit tight on the top since I am still nursing, hence the scarf. I dreaded the party but as it turned out we had a lot of fun and played mini-golf and won two prizes for David.

But it also meant I went to bed later than usual and woke up really tired and I feel like I didn’t recover from that all day. It’s 7:30 and I am still overwhelmingly tired. Will go to bed early tonight. Because I was so tired, this morning lagged a lot and the layout took me a lot longer than usual and then my sewing machine died (it turned out I had threaded wrong, so it was totally my fault.) By the time I was done it was almost 11 and Nathaniel was up from his morning nap.

David put together one of the prizes we won last night (a puzzle.)

And of course, Nathaniel wanted to check it out.

When he started destroying them, David literally guarded it with his body.

So Nathaniel found some other forms of entertainment.

And David made some angry faces at me. Cause aren’t they more fun than smiling?

We were invited to Jake’s boss’ 40th birthday party, so we got the kids dressed and I snapped some photos of Nathaniel in his Istanbul shirt.

Doesn’t he look so cute?

Then we headed to the party which was wonderful fun. Two parties in two days, that’s more than we’ve been to in the last three months. And now I am going to organize some things for this month and maybe write up a post for tomorrow explaining some June plans and then hopefully hit the sack with my book. Here’s to a great June.

Note to Self:
Despite working on it a lot, I find myself still telling myself “I should do” this and that or “I should be” like this and that and that I need to change somehow. Yet while growth is good, the ability to accept myself as I am is also good and I am getting closer but not there just yet. If awareness is half the game, though, I am halfway there. Getting more and more away day by day.

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. This has been a full but wonderful weekend. I am grateful for so much time and laughter with my family.
2. I am excited for my plans for June and grateful that I feel ambitious and creative right now.
3. I am thankful to all of you for cheering me on this month and all the nice comments I got at 2peas and amm and facebook. I feel really thankful for all the kindness and generosity of spirit.

Two Things David’s Grateful For:
1. Daddy. (He’s really into his dad lately.)
2. The birthday party and playing with Nico and Geoff.