I am so tired. Nathaniel is still screaming most of the night and even when I am not nursing, I can’t sleep so I just lie there, hurting. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I am so wiped.
This afternoon, we took a short walk so I could take some photos and we ran into a neighbor and her kids and they took some of the walk with us. When we got to the bridge, David and the little girl looked at the ducks while Nathaniel sucked his thumb.
And then gave me some smiles.
Just low on energy today so I’ll work on putting creative therapy together and go to bed.
Note to Self:
When we went for our walk today. I had a specific goal in mind. When we then ran into our neighbors, I was annoyed that I had to change my plans because she told her kid (and mine) that we could walk around elsewhere and then afterwards as she almost did it again, I had to nicely (i think) tell her that I wanted to go take some photos and had to get back home to work. I felt awkward afterwards but I didn’t want to be doing what we were doing it. My first reaction was that I should be flexible but then I remembered the book I was listening to today and remembered that I should say no more often. I should not do things I don’t want to do. Life’s too short. I need to stop feeling guilty. That’s something that I really need to work on. The guilt.
Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that my job is flexible enough to allow me to rest when I deeply need to like tonight.
2. I am still eating those yummy sandwiches from Saturday’s post. I am grateful for the fresh food, veggies and protein.
3. I am back to reading books on my Sony reader. It’s amazing but I love it way more than reading in book form as it turns out.
Teething is hard isn’t it? My 8 month old was up for almost 18 hours of Tues–> Wed, but he finally slept on Daddy for a few hours early last night.
Have you had Nathaniel checked for reflux? Silent refluxers don’t have many symptoms except for fussiness and lousy sleep, so its easy to miss in the early days, but will often get worse during teething (because of the non-stop saliva) and eating solids (which hang out in the stomach longer and are more uncomfortable to travel up and down the throat).
Both my babies have had reflux, but I wouldn’t have recognized in in my little guy if his sister wouldn’t have had it first. He hardly ever spits up, but it travels up and down his throat all day long, sometimes to the point that he gulps or is stuffy because it gets caught in his nose. Acid can do nasty things to their esophagus and makes them really fussy because of the pain. Both of my kids were on acid reducers to take away the pain. It doesn’t stop the reflux, but takes away the pain. Unfortunately, it doesn’t help the sleep issue much — I couldn’t sleep if I had food wandering up and down my throat, either.