Magic I Saw this Week: I will say that I’ve been feeling off and frustrated and disgruntled. It’s hard for me to put my finger on why but I can tell the sentiment is there the whole time. So I am hoping to work on it soon by taking some time to fully journal and see if I can get some of the thoughts out of my head on to paper. Maybe that will help. In this state, I am not as open to seeing magic. But I was still able to see how I am helping some of my workmates tangibly. I saw the magic of David when he worked so hard on his ML and when we celebrated his 14th birthday. Magic of Nathaniel with his friends. Magic of Jake and his ability to forgive. Magic of spending time on my couch reading which is my favorite magic.
Magic I Made this Week: I took Friday off to celebrate David’s 14th birthday. I emailed my mom, journaled, did my pushups, and yoga. I kept going even when it was really hard. I used my twinkly lights and my fire on youtube to help ground myself. I read a lot. I rested. I spent time with Nathaniel helping him with his homework and with David on his ML. We celebrated david and I made room for Jake to socialize and climb. I also did some lovely art.
Magic of Me that I explored Week: I spent time ruminating and wallowing which wasn’t great. But I also got my hair done and tried to be kind to myself.
Top Goals Review:
- Work: figured out a plan for release and reviews, prepped for monthly, and didn’t do japan yet.
- Personal: kept up with journaling + did some art + daily yoga, daily pushups, went to gym twice.
- Family: celebrated david’s birthday, did math with nathaniel. cooked for Jake. took family photos and did celebrations. went on a tiny adventure.
I celebrate: David turning 14! I can’t believe he’s 14!
I am grateful for: taking Friday off. and forgiveness.
This week, I exercised: I’ve done yoga every morning and I’ve also done 10 pushups a day minimum each day. I also went to body pump once, and a full yoga class at work.
Self-care this week: Still journaling, sleeping so-so, hiking, and leaving work as early as possible to work from home as much as possible. Got my hair done. Still need to work on nutrition.
I showed up for: David and his birthday. We all took the day off.
I said yes to: iterating on a graph a lot of times.
I said no to: working on Friday.
Core Desired Feelings Check-in:
- Embrace: i am embracing how I feel. I plan to go all out and really journal my heart out.
- Alive: playing this awesome video game as a whole family was super awesome and made me come alive.
- Lighter: it feels so much lighter when i work 4 days a week.
- Kinder: i really tried to be extra kind last monday. i’m a work in progress.
- Surrender: i need to surrender to what is and i am really fighting it a lot.
What I tolerated this week: sadness, quiet, frustration, pain.
My mood this week was: tired and sad and then happy.
I am proud of: david. i am so so so proud of him and so thankful for our relationship.
I forgive myself for: everything this week. i will let it all go.
Here’s what I learned this week: i learned that i have to take time to slow down and that everything works out even if i have to do it last minute. i don’t have to stress.
What I love right now: i love that i am making so much time to read.
Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2019. You can read more about my projects for 2019 here.
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