Right Now

It’s been a long time since I’ve posted a thoughts-post. I’ve been thinking about writing them, even thinking about the content, but I just never seemed to want to make the time to sit and do it.  I promised myself that September would be when I got back to doing these. So here we are. September 3. As good a day as any. To get my feet wet I decided to start with some “right now” thoughts. I figure my word for the year is present, so talking about what’s going on “right now” seems apt.

• Right now, I am really enjoying fresh air. I find myself seeking it and sitting outside as much as I possibly can. I am deeply grateful to be living in California where the weather is outside-friendly for so much of the year.
• Right now, I am reading voraciously. I finished three books this weekend and all I seem to want to do is read, read, read.
• Right now, I am trying to settle into some kind of routine but I have two more weeks before life goes back to “normal” so I am trying to take it all in stride and let myself off the hook.
• Right now, I find myself itching for something new, wanting to shake things up, but not knowing exactly how. I find myself searching.
• Right now, I am still trying to get back into the groove of things. Even basic things like doing art.
• Right now, I am already thinking about 2014. The year, my word, my wishes. My projects.
• Right now, I am starting to get excited about my upcoming class, slightly stressed that I haven’t taught it in a while and hoping it’s still well-received.
• Right now, I am reorganizing my coaching practice and figuring out what I want the future to look like.
• Right now, I am missing some of my friends and their company and making plans to reach out.
• Right now, I am waiting for some news in the mail that’s making me anxious pretty much constantly.
• Right now, I am listening to Sara Bareilles’ Brave on repeat and thinking about what I might do if I were braver.  I want to be brave. Really brave.
• Right now, I am listening to Tara Brach’s wise words. There’s always something new to learn, even when I’ve listened to it again and again.
• Right now, I am loving my kids and my husband so deeply and wanting so badly to be the best version of myself for them all the time. I wish for more patience and so much more kindness. I love them so much.
• Right now, I am looking forward to going to get Nathaniel from school and seeing his face shine when he sees me waiting for him.
• Right now, I’m excited about some happy mail that I know is on its way to me.
• Right now, I am missing my mom and dad and sister and nephews.
• Right now, I am thinking about how to be done with Starbucks. However I can.
• Right now, I am trying to figure out how to fundamentally change the way I eat, the way I look at food, the way I want to live the rest of my life.
• Right now, I am loving the way Nathaniel says human (he pronounces it hooman).
• Right now, I still can’t believe David’s already in third grade. How is it that time is passing so quickly?
• Right now, I am so proud of my husband for how well he’s doing at work and how brave he is.
• Right now, I am tired. I always seem to be so tired.
• Right now, I find myself taking pauses several times a day to say thanks for my life. My imperfect but wonderful-in-so-many-ways life.
• Right now, I am thinking about all the things I’d like to learn and all the places I’d like to visit. I am thinking about making a plan to put both of these in process.
• Right now, I need to clean up my desk. There are several other areas of my house that I’d like to declutter. Where I feel the clutter is contributing to my frustration and nagging me daily.
• Right now, I am really inspired by Diana Nyad.
• Right now, I am thinking of this large gap. And what we all lose because of it.
• Right now, I am thinking about where else in my life I could be doing some clearing. What else needs attention.
• Right now, I am wishing I could be kinder to myself.
• Right now, I know my birthday is coming up and I will be going into the last year of my thirties. I am wondering what that means for me, if anything. What I might like to commit to, think about, shift, aim for, etc for this last year.
• Right now, I am taking Ali’s Hello Story class and loving the stories she’s telling and thinking about whether I’d like to scrap more and whether I’d like to type up my journaling again. About how and where I want to tell our stories.
• Right now, I am attempting to learn how to draw faces. Again. I seem to come back to this one often.
• Rigth now, I am trying to smile more, breathe more, be kinder, and have faith that all is okay.

How about you, what’s on your mind right now?

ps: there’s a giveaway of my class on the my mind’s eye blog today if you’re interested. there’ll be one here in a short while too if I can get my act together 🙂