Daily Diary – October 11 2010

I’ve had this image open on my computer for weeks. Didn’t feel like using it for some reason.

I’ve been thinking a lot about imperfection today. It’s the topic of one of my new classes for 2011. So how about some normal-life photos? Imperfect ones.

First up is David’s school photo. Remember the one we practiced smiling for, for so many days? Well you can decide if it worked.

I’ll leave my thoughts out of it. Here’s a photo I snapped of him when he came home from school. He’s growing up so fast.

We have a lot of this at home. David lying on the couch, Nathaniel walking up to him and showing him things and sharing.

David doing snow angels on the floor.

Nathaniel crying cause David put the cards away in a drawer he cannot reach.

David lying on the couch and smiling at me.

And Nathaniel making his “I know you’re going to take a photo of me so I’ll smile” face.

This is our life. The ordinary moments. Nathaniel gives hugs each time you ask now. I was having a rough morning so as I cried on the couch, he came up next to me and gave me a big hug. All on his own. And then kept hugging me. I’m afraid I did not just snap out of it this morning as I’d hoped but I am finally feeling better now. An amazing, kind gesture by Amber and My Mind’s Eye (as if they didn’t already spoil me way more than enough) was sort of the moment that tipped it over. It was such a surprise, so much kindness that I literally couldn’t take it. I wept and then I went walking and decided I needed to let it all go. I have such an overwhelming todo list now that I am not exactly sure where to begin and I am experiencing one of those paralysis moments. It doesn’t help that I am exhausted, too.

I have so many thoughts on my mind. About meeting needs. About feedback. About setting goals and accomplishing them. Values and feeding them. So much swimming in there. Good thing it’s art journaling month. I have so many posts I want to write, too. About exercising. About my journaling. About happiness month back in July. But for now I have to work on my class work. I need to buckle down and get it out of the way. I think it will lift most of the weight off my shoulders.

Here’s to hoping good mood, positivity, and productivity return. And soon.

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am thankful for a completely unexpected package in the mail. Some wonderful, happy product from My Minds Eye. Pure kindness and generosity. I am deeply grateful.
2. I am grateful that I walked for the tenth day in a row. I am aching all over. Literally. But I am trying to keep going.
3. I am grateful that some of the undecided bits of my work are now decided. I am still more frustrated than I would have liked about some of it but at least there’s resolution and now I can move forward, hopefully.

Three Things David’s Grateful For:
1. playing Star Wars with Hasen (David was Luke)
2. coloring my U puppet (Umbrella Bird)
3. Checking out a Star Wars book from the library

2 comments to Daily Diary – October 11 2010

  • Ronnie Crowley

    As usual your pictures are so much better than school pictures. The people taking these pictures are in it for a quick buck and not for good pictures. But its a first and mile stone and as they go its a good face just not a great picture technically.

  • Jan

    You will look back at these school photos and love them I promise. The smile might not be natural, but it sure looks like a kindergarten photo. All 4 of my childrens’ photos looked like this. It is part of the school ritual. I bet if you looked st the other kids photos, they would have goofy smiles too.It’s how they are at 5. Just plain goofy. It makes me smile.

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