Staying Open – February 21

 

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Power outage tonight. Haven’t had one of these in a long while. Seven hours and counting. They said we likely won’t get it back overnight.

Fun times.

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Staying Open – February 20

 

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When I first started this puzzle, I almost gave up. It has no edges and no corners and it was mostly blue so all the typical methods I’d used to start a puzzle were not available.

But I was listening to a good book and had nothing to lose so I kept at it.

I found a few small patterns that looked like they went together and slowly, slowly started to form some sort of a shape

I made several wrong assumptions along the way and had to turn things right to left or upside down.

But I got there in the end.

It was a good reminder that just because I don’t know how to start doesn’t mean I can’t keep at it and that I can still find my way through and finish.

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Staying Open – February 19

 

 

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I love the long weekends so much. Getting two full days without the sunday-syndrome is magical. Grateful for the relaxed calm and spaciousness it offers. I wish we had them more frequently.

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Staying Open – February 18

 

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About two months ago I quit caffeine. I was having trouble sleeping through the night uninterrupted and I’d already tried everything I could think of, so as a last resort I quit caffeine.

I didn’t get any of the excruciating headaches that I was expecting.

I still drink tea (herbal) and coffee (decaf) and coke zero (not caffeinated) so it doesn’t seem to have made a huge difference on the surface.

But I am mostly able to sleep through the night uninterrupted now.

I still miss my tea most of all. And being able to get soda when I am out and about but it’s been absolutely worth it.

Now if only I could walk away from sugar the same way.

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Review: Before I Let Go

Before I Let Go
Before I Let Go by Kennedy Ryan
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

This came with such high ratings that i think it might have affected my expectations. It was a good story, and I liked that it was a second chance story (I haven’t read many of those.) I liked that it covered complicated, real topics as loss and depression and the impact that can have on a marriage and the ways in which we deal with such large life events. I think if romance is your genre and you’re married, you’ll like this one.

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Staying Open – February 17

 

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Isn’t the.world.so magnificent? Sometimes we forget.

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Staying Open – February 16

 

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Still at it, I am obsessed. Not sure what’s going on.

Grateful to have something that’s really making me happy right now.

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Staying Open – February 15

 

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One of my favorite people at work is so wildly different than I am. In ways that would seem to be incompatible and yet I love working with her. I think the dynamic between working for, managing, and working alongside matters a lot for what I think is ideal from my peers.

And I think that I would always choose someone kind over any other attribute. Give me kind, give me hardworking and give me collaborative. Smart is overrated and without the other three, it is not good enough.

But as long as they are the three I love working with people different than I am and learning and being open to other ways of leading. So grateful to get to learn from people I admire.

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Staying Open – February 14

 

 

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We dressed up and went out tonight. A lovely dinner together. It was sweet and delicious.

And also, I don’t fit into any of my clothes anymore. And also my feet hurt from the heels. And also we made the reservation just yesterday cause we were so disorganized.

But we still showed up.

This is the only moment I have. I can spend it anxious or bitter or sad about what I don’t have. Or I can be here and find joy in what I do have.

I’m choosing to do the latter.

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Staying Open – February 13

 

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There are ways of being that have worked for me for 48 years. Ways I show up, things I say, things I do. They’ve led me to this wonderful life that I appreciate so much.

and yet.

And yet they also get in my way. I’ve been carrying these behaviors as the way to be for so long that I don’t even know what happens when I am not this way. Is there an even better outcome on the other side of that other way of being?

This is also what open is about. Open to other ways of being. Open to my way not being the only way. Open to change and options and a shift in perspective.

Oh captain! My captain!

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Staying Open – February 12

 

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My goal this year is to stay slow and light with my expectations from others and myself. I lie in bed longer, I watch TV and paint if that makes me happy, and I try to remind myself that my stressing about it won’t actually make things resolve to better outcomes.

I am here in this moment as I am.

I wish exercised more and ate better. I wish I were more diligent about staying in touch with my friends. I wish I were able to learn Korean faster. I wish I were a less scared driver. I wish I were more social.

I wish for many things.

And I am also ok right here right now. Grateful for what is and what I am. Open to growing and expanding when the time is right.

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Staying Open – February 11

 

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There’s so much going on. Both in the macro and the micro sense I feel like there’s more going on than I can absorb at this moment. Devastation, inflation, depression, layoffs, anxiety, sickness, unidentified objects in the sky, bruised joints, overwhelm and more.

It’s too much.

So instead I am staying here in this moment. Open to being here and seeing the good that’s available to me. Trying to center and ground myself in gratitude for what is.

Trying.

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