Little boy was bored this weekend and created a project for himself. He thought of the project, researched it, built prototypes and then executed on it.
It was pretty awesome to see.
It also reminded me that it’s fun to get lost in a new project for a while. Fun to jump with both feet in.
Yes to fun, yes to creative ideas, yes to jumping in!
So much of life is the stories we tell ourselves. There are so few “facts” and we spend all our time weaving stories out of those facts, trying to make them make sense.
Except that none of the stories are true. Because by definition they are stories. We rarely even know why we did something we did let alone why someone else did or didn’t do something.
So once you put it all together, there’s more story than facts in the picture.
All this is to say if I’m writing stories anyway, I might as well write stories that make me happy. Stories that empower me and make me the best version of myself.
Because whatever you think, you’re right.
Yes to making up more positive stories. Yes to looking for the good.
““The reason they’re morons is they spend years, decades, hell, their whole lives regretting or apologizing for things nobody else even remembers. They carry those things around like bags of sand that keep them from going to all the places they could’ve gone and would’ve gone if they hadn’t been so busy thinking about the goddamn sand.”
This is a unique book. The blurb mentions “Silver Linings Playbook” and “The Breakfast Club” and in fairness, I do see elements of both of them though thinking about either of them too much might take away from enjoying this book itself. I read the whole book in a single sitting. I loved the way it was diary entries mixed with dialogue and narration.
“Soldier didn’t need to show me all the time that he loved me. He knew it and I knew it and that’s that. What he was doing was giving me a safe place to put my own love. It’s like he was saying, I’m never going to leave you. I’ll wait for you. I want you to know that I’ll always wait for you, that it’s safe to love me, that you have a place to put all the feelings you can’t give to anybody else because it’s too dangerous, because you’re worried they won’t understand, and they won’t wait for you. I’m here. I love you. And I will wait for you. I’m not going anywhere.”
I loved each of the characters and I loved their unique perspective of life and why they had decided to be where they were and what they were grappling with. I loved that most of them seemed real to me and I loved how they were thrown together and the one thing they had in common was enough to bind them.
“And if you’re wondering why no always trumps yes, it’s because when you’re married it takes two to say yes but only one to say no. Besides, there’s no risk in saying no. No means everything stays the same, you’re in control, and you don’t feel like you’ve lost out on anything.”
This is a great story with some profound insight about life, how painful it can be and what it means to respect each others’ choices and what it means to love each other (and ourselves) just the way we are, with pain and all.
with gratitude to netgalley and Gallery Books for an advanced copy in exchange for an honest review
This book was an unexpected surprise. It starts out as a light, funny read and then evolves into something touching and lovely. It’s about Wren who finds out that her childhood (and still) best friend has died. She is asked to clean his apartment and has to deal with all the people who are circling his friend’s belongings. She’s finding out all the things she didn’t know about her friend and finding out some things about herself in the process.
This is a real and touching story about a well-loved Shakespeare teacher a Columbia who gets early onset Alzheimers. It’s also a story about a complicated family with ex-wives and step-children and abandonment and love and belonging. It’s also a love letter to New York City and its people.
I’ve lived in New York for all of my twenties and the characters in this story jump off the paper and are real and textured. They try, they fail, and they try again. They let each other down, they love each other fiercely. They take care of each other. They stand by each other. They show up for each other.
Each character in this book is unique and familiar and it’s not possible not to fall in love with them.
with gratitude to netgalley and Knopf Doubleday Publishing Group for an advanced copy in exchange for an honest review.
This is definitely not Weiner’s typical type of book. It’s not light and a beach read. Which is totally fine but I do wish they would change the covers so it doesn’t look like it’s a light and breezy book. I wasn’t expecting the plot to be what it was and while I did like the book, I would have liked to know what I was getting into.
Somehow this book ended up being different than what I thought it was going to be. It was a lot longer than I thought it needed to be and it was serious with a lot of serious subject matter and yet a romance, sort of, maybe in between genres? I did like it but I somehow didn’t love it. I sort of knew where it was going and lost patience in the middle when it took way too long to get there.
I loved this book. It reminded me of “Plainsong” which was my favorite read from two years ago. I was quiet and sad and also beautiful. Even though it was a “mystery” there wasn’t much mystery to most of the story. It was character driven and each of the characters was textured and layered and i loved them each a little bit.
Weekly Intention: This is a short week. My goal this week is just to show up, i really need to take it one day at a time this week.
This month’s intention is:June: Yes to Light: Breathe in the fresh air. Summer is here. Smell the water. Go outside. Sit in the sunshine. One more school year is over. Celebrate your life. Oh man, i really needed to hear this tonight.
One way I will leap this week: maybe some more emails?
One boundary I will set this week: I need to think about what I need right now, I am not clear on it.
One area where I will go deeper this week: i need to go back to doing more journaling.
What do I need to sit with this week? this burnout i’m feeling
I am looking forward to: being done with the DMV.
Focus onCore Desired Feelings (lighter, kinder, enough, magic, wild): right now i am not feeling much of any of these.
This week’s challenges: DMV, short, tight week, catching up on all i dropped on the floor last week.
Top Goals:
Work: make a list of all the todos, stay on top of email, send more emails.
Personal: restart journaling plan, continue illustration plan, June OLW journaling.
Family: be with J, calendar painters, be done with DMV, find a driving teacher for D, more projects for N.
This week, I want to remember: it doesn’t mean anything.
The Best Part of this Week: the best part of this week was the four day weekend. I needed it and rested for most of it.
I celebrate: taking a plunge, however small.
I am grateful for: a little extra rest this week.
This week, I exercised: I climbed 3 times a week, rode every day for 15 mins and once for 60 minutes, did 10 mins of core and 10 mins of arms and 5 minutes of stretching and 10 minutes of restorative yoga daily. I also did week three of strength class which was 2 hours of strength and 30 minutes of stretching this week.
This week, I said yes to: sending those emails.
I said no to: catching up on email, i am incredibly behind.
I honored my values (love, learn, peace, service, gratitude): i am making peace with how things are and trying not to worry too much.
Top Goals Review:
Work: did not make a list of all the todos, did not stay on top of email, did somewhat align around FoW.
Personal: did not really continue journaling plan, did start illustration plan, did week in the life documentation, did OLW journaling.
Family: spent time with J, booked painters, encouraged D for M, N found his own project.
My mood this week was: i think i am experiencing real burnout at this point
I am proud of: i am proud of how much i can step away and disengage.
I release: all the guilt I am feeling.
Here’s what I learned this week: it doesn’t have to be this way.