I was feeling super unmotivated and blah all day today. Vacation is ending and I am tired and i.dont want it to end. I was whiny and lethargic all day.
I finally dragged myself out of the house to go food shopping with the little boy. After we returned I figured I might as well make some food for the week.
I made steak, ground beef, salmon, zucchini, yellow potatoes, sweet potatoes and corn. And I cut the watermelon.
And I bought some beautiful flowers.
I still feel mostly blah but at least I have some fresh and delicious food in the fridge now.
Tonight I am sitting in the back yard, a hummingbird just passed by me, it’s quiet with just enough breeze for my chime to go off occasionally. I just had a delicious salad and I am listening to a good book. This is the kind of moment where I close my eyes and say “yes” and feel so grateful for being here and now.
Back home and excited to be playing with paint again.
I have three more days before I go back to work and while I definitely feel more rested and calmer, I certainly wouldn’t say no to another few weeks off. Each time I think about vacation ending I can feel the stress of going back.
Today we got the first laptop email from school which reminded me that we’re also halfway through summer. Not excited about summer ending either. This coming year will be challenging and busy for my kids. I am not ready to be in the office or doing school drop offs just yet.
So instead I am reminding myself to be here now. I still have three more days, no reason to spend them stressing about what’s to come. I still have half a summer with the kids. No need to worry about the fall just yet.
There’ll be time for all that. That time is not now.
View from the top of Mt. Tam is breathtaking. An 8mile hike was today’s adventure. It was hotter than we expected but we made it and the views were rewarding.
Vacation almost over, grateful to get to sneak a few adventures in there.
Just feeling grateful for time off today. For getting to spend time with my boys. Getting to chat with my mom and dad. Getting to read all day and do art. It takes me several days off in a row to finally wind down and I am not there yet.
I am still enjoying the rest and recovery and taking things slow so I can fill my cup.
Happy 4th of July for those observing. I am grateful for this country where I’ve made my chosen home. I’m grateful for getting to see friends for the first time in a long time. I’m grateful for good books, art supplies, my backyard, quiet time and family time.
