The Best Part of this Week: The best part of this week was big boy’s 16th birthday!
I celebrate: my sweet, wonderful son. my amazing sister. and my wonderful uncle who all had birthdays this week!
I am grateful for: the three day weekend, they are always perfect for me.
This week, I exercised: I did so much exercise this week! 50 mins of core exercises, 50 mins of arms exercises, 20 mins of other strength classes, 60 minutes on the bike, 40 minutes of yoga, 40 minutes of stretching, and 2 hours of walking and I went climbing!
This week, I said yes to: accepting what is.
I said no to: drawing and journaling unfortunately. I chose to let them go vs stressing myself.
I honored my values (love, learn, peace, service, gratitude): i was much more peaceful this week and it felt wonderful.
Top Goals Review:
Work: talked to D, worked on helping close NBU, did not write up L convo, did not yet make a plan for L/D.
Personal: continued to tinker with and edit plan
Family: took walks with J. celebrated D. did not really do one thing with either 🙁
My mood this week was: calm and peaceful for the most part.
I am proud of: trying to not let all the work get to me.
I release: all that i didn’t get done this week and all the ways in which i’m dropping the ball everywhere.
Here’s what I learned this week: i own my feelings, my thoughts, my life, and my choices.
My sister who is the most thoughtful person I know. The one who always plans surprises for others months and months and months in advance. The one who is overflowing with so much love that it spills out of her in her kind eyes, tight hugs, and genuine smile.
My sister is one of a kind.
She is generous to a fault. She spoils me and she spoils my kids. She calls my husband her big brother. If you ask her for a favor she will deliver tenfold. She will go out of her way to make you happy and to make you smile.
My amazing sister who has planned one of a kind birthdays and special events for everyone in this family has had to spend her 50th birthday in a pandemic. Which meant we couldn’t be there to hug her and pour our love out to her the way she’s done for all of us.
My mom has worked incredibly hard to make it memorable and she did an extraordinary job. And still I am heartbroken I can’t be with her on this day.
I love you with every inch of my heart Yonuka and I am deeply grateful that you were born. I couldn’t have asked for a better, kinder, more loving sister. How lucky am I?
I spent almost all day in the couch. When I noticed that I was eating the candy and cookies and chocolate at my table, I got up and cooked myself a pound of veggies so I could graze that instead.
I still ate a loaf cake later, too. But it felt good to get some veggies into my system. It also felt good to take a walk outside and it was quite cold so it felt great to take a warm bath when I got back.
I spent most of today watching the impeachment trial and then the vote. I am still fascinated by and grateful that we as citizens get to watch the American government at work. Even if I am not proud of the work itself. The live streaming makes it easier to hold our officials accountable for the actions they take when representing us. I understand and respect that everyone chooses how they spend their time. To me, this was a worthwhile way to spend my day.
Even though I was very disappointed in the outcome.
I can say more but there’s no point.
To ensure I didn’t spiral, I then took a nice long walk and a nice long bath. Self-care all the way.
Yes to showing up and learning about our political system. Yes to fresh air. And yes to baths.
This week ended up being a bit of a mess. I got exercise.and nutrition in but no water, and very little soul work. Thankfully I felt ok most of the week. But I absolutely need a new routine for journaling.
Now that I am exercising first thing, it’s taking up all my morning. I have no time for journaling and I already really miss it.
Today bug boy had his well check appointment. The doctors office that’s usually brimming with people and couches was bare. We walked in double masked and they gave us one more since it had to be one of theirs. I’m grateful that we get to go to the doctor because back in March of 2020, we couldn’t of course. But sad that 11 months later, life still is so restricted.
We then had to go get passports renewed for the kids which was another crazy ordeal of its own.
Both chores done. We still have drivers licenses to renew, orthodontist, opthalmologist, and who knows what other surprises await us in 2021.
I’ll take all of these and more over covid of course. These are signs that we’re healthy and living life. I am grateful to be here and not in a different state.
Also grateful for the 3-day weekend. Perfect time to rest and recover from this very busy week.
Yes to doing life’s chores. Yes to rest. So grateful.
I appear to have nothing to say tonight. I am feeling tired but also full. I still have a lot to do and I have appointments tomorrow that take me to the outside world which I always find challenging and even more so in covid. But they must be done so we shall do them.
But I am feeling peaceful and my mind is quiet. Maybe it’s because I’m too tired but either way I’ll take it. Enjoying the quiet right now as I also know it’s unlikely to last.
Its been a busy week. I did exercise and tried to eat reasonably well but I haven’t journaled, sketched, or done many of the other self-care acts that I wanted to this week. Tomorrow looks unlikely too.
But maybe I can do more this weekend and make sure I take extra time to journal and check in with myself. Since it’s a long weekend that seems feasible.
I really did not do well on anything but movement this week. And even the tracking is falling by the wayside. But it’s.ok I am making progress.
And here’s the best part: I am remembering what matters most and making choices That line up with that. I am choosing to show up the book club. I am choosing to take time to exercise. I am choosing to take a walk with my husband.
That’s what this project is all about So as far as I’m concerned it’s working.
I am grateful that while I’ve been really behind all week both personally and professionally, I feel okay this week and feel a sense of calm.
And I really cherish this feeling. Knowing that I will catch up, I’ll read all my email, and then there will be more email and I’ll read that too.
I generally feel a sense of overwhelm and self-disappointment when I am in a place like this, so I am very grateful that I appear to be giving myself grace and that I am dialing into book club instead of feverishly doing email at night.
Yes to doing the best I can and yes to creating boundaries.
Some things continue to be challenging here. I have now shifted my exercise to early in the morning but that means on days when I’m having a tight schedule everything else falls by the wayside. So no journaling and no art.
I’m not entirely sure how to fix this without waking up earlier which I don’t want to do since that compromises on sleep so that’s what I have to think about a little bit today.
I’m still really enjoying this project and making it visible for myself the progress that I’m making towards wellness so it’s making me very happy.
Making the invisible visible is always a good thing.
I have a sign on my desk that says “We can do hard things.” It’s from Glennon Doyle and I love looking at it every day.
Over the years I’ve learned that different things are hard for different people. And that sometimes big things are really easy for me and small things are really hard.
Today I did a bunch of those small things. Getting paperwork ready for a passport renewal, sending off tuition payments, and other paperwork. Calling to cancel things or to change service. Booking a small getaway. The small daily tasks are overwhelming and hard for me.
I find myself postponing them again and again and feeling the dread of them permanently sitting in my to-do list. So today I booked some time on my calendar and gone it all done in one shot. And now I feel that overwhelming relief of getting to cross off those things from my list.
