The Best Part of this Week: the best part of this week was hanging out with big boy on Saturday night.
I celebrate: making it through this week, it was quite a lot.
I am grateful for: sunny weather and getting to spend a lot of downtime this weekend.
This week, I exercised: I climbed 3 times a week, rode every day for 15 mins and once for 60 minutes, did 10 mins of core and 10 mins of arms and 5 minutes of stretching and 10 minutes of restorative yoga daily. I also did week three of strength class which was 1 hour and 20 minutes of strength and 20 minutes of stretching this week.
This week, I said yes to: going to work Monday and Tuesday.
I said no to: letting myself get carried away with all that’s going on at work.
I honored my values (love, learn, peace, service, gratitude): I worked hard all week to hold on to the feeling of grounded-ness and faith in the universe.
Top Goals Review:
Work: went to IO, did not really make a list of all the todos, cleaned email.
Personal: continued journaling plan mostly, started week in the life documentation, did OLW May.
Family: spent time with with J, didn’t book painters but got quotes, did help D with course list, did not find a project for N.
My mood this week was: all over the place
I am proud of: i am proud of how calmly i am able to navigate all this.
I release: all the things I don’t have control over.
Here’s what I learned this week: i get to decide my peace.
It’s birthday season over here. Today is my nephews’ 22nd birthday. Yet another reminder of the passage of time and how lucky I am to get to see them grow into loving, kind and capable human beings. What a joy!
Sunday nights are usually not my favorite. But lately I am finding myself grounded and calm. This is likely the best gift the universe can give me.
Even though my 100 days of radical wellness has been over for a while, I’m still eating the greens and protein. I am drinking more water. I am exercising and doing art and journaling. And the restorative yoga continues to change my life.
I expect the next few months will bring a lot of change and uncertainty. Work, school, and reentry into life are all going to be transitions and I am usually not a fan of transition.
I plan to hang on to all this wellness I am grounded in and say yes to receiving it all with grace and an adventurous spirit.
Yes to what comes and yes to adventure. And yes to the guidance of calm.
Today I got to: exercise in the morning including cardio, core and meditation. Then I got to chat with a good friend which most definitely was the highlight of my day.
I worked for a few hours and then I went climbing with my husband. Came home and had a bunch more meetings for work. Then spent an hour discussing 11th grade course selection options with my son. And now I have to do some more work.
My day was all over the place but it was full. Life and work and family and personal are all mixed up at the moment and yet I am still trying to make sure there’s time and room for each.
As I get older and older, I am learning to let go of the idea that there’s a way “things are done” and embracing the fact that I get to do things my way.
I have to do some uncomfortable things in the next few months and I’ve been stalling and hemming and hawing instead of doing them.
And each time I postpone something that I know has to get done, it looms over me and I start worrying about it constantly. Sometimes the trick is to just do it. Like booking my stupid DMV appointment.
But other times, the trick is to find a way to move through it that feels doable for me. Maybe I am not ready for a conversation and can send an email instead. Maybe I send just one single email. Whatever it might be, doing in on my own terms brings the autonomy and control back to my own hands. I am not a victim of circumstance. I get to choose how this goes. And if I can’t do it the way others would, that’s ok too. I get to do it the way *I* would.
Today was Google I/O which meant I went to work again in person. It has been good and tiring to be at work. A lot of wonderful reminders of what was lovely about being at work and seeing people in person, even if behind a mask.
Also reminders of commuting, a lot of socializing, and just using so much energy. I had forgotten that feeling of walking in after being gone and feeling that overwhelming tiredness.
I am still feeling a lot of feelings about all the changes and find myself internally triggered many many times a day and then stepping back to tell myself it’s going to be okay and to take one step at a time and try to do the next right thing as Glennon often says. Just the fact that I am able to step outside of my experience while I’m having the experience is a huge success for me. So I am taking the wins where I can get them.
I don’t handle change all that well. I tend to thrive on routine and I like consistency.
This year at work has been nothing but change. Just when I get one routine going, another major change descends and I have to reconfigure my thinking and my structure again and again.
Today was the beginning of yet another change. I’m not loving it so far. It’s hectic and the ground under me feels like it’s shifting and I am just so tired of having to adapt.
And yet I am, of course, learning so much, too, and trying to remind myself that choosing yes was about being here now and leaning into what is.
So I am trying to breathe an extra few breaths and reminding myself that it’s all going to work out. Because it always does in the end.
And it’s not the end yet.
Yes to leaning in. Yes to being open. Yes to being uncomfortable.
