Ranunculus season is almost over and I already miss these flowers that make me so happy.

I have a lot on my mind today. We had a two-hour educational session for Juneteenth which was inspiring and thought-provoking. I also did some learning on my own. And as always, it reminded me how much more I have to learn.

Then I had some vulnerable conversations at work. That were good but then comes the vulnerability hangover that brene brown talks about so I am feeling some of that right now.

And i am trying to sit with it all and be present to what is instead of doing something like I often want to.

One of my goals around picking the word ‘yes’ was saying yes to what is. Being present to what’s here.

Being vs doing.

Being is really hard for me. I’d much rather do. I like to help, serve and make things better. But some things take time, other things are completely out of my control, and yet other things will not get better and it’s just life.

So instead of fighting it or beating myself up for not fixing it, I am trying to be here, feel my feelings and do the best I can when it’s possible.

Some days I do better than others but it’s always hard. So here I am today sitting with it all and working on being.

Yes to being. Yes to leaning in to what is. Yes to learning.

#yearofyes #karenikayearofyes

We’ve had a lot of changes at work lately and my day to day conversations and meetings and interactions have changed quite a bit.

Even though I am spending time with many people I’ve known for quite some time, the substance and interaction models we have changed.

As a result, I am trying hard to not walk into these meetings with preset ideology on who they are and how they will show up. I am trying to be open and keep a beginner’s mind mindset.

And I’m noticing how hard that is.

It’s so hard to shift how we see people once we’ve made up our mind about them.

It requires a concerted effort and an intentional mindset. And then I try to remember that everyone else likely feels that way about each other too.

Human interaction is so complex and interesting.

Yes to learning and growing and trying to hold on to that beginner’s mind thinking.

#yearofyes #karenikayearofyes

I don’t know why some people are worriers whereas others just assume things will work out.

I also don’t know why I was placed in the former camp.

I spent the day worrying about the rat in my car, of course. And I am very grateful to report I managed to lure it out of my car.

The internet, once again, came through for me.

We parked the car in the sun all day, then I opened the door and quietly waited. It jumped right out of the car.

After a moment of disbelief I closed the car door and my neighbor and her kids and I watched as the rat scampered around for quite some time. In broad daylight!

Anyhow, the car is at the mechanic now and if hopefully nothing is wrong with it, the next step is to get the car detailed. Here’s hoping that’s all there will be to this saga.

But here’s the clincher. So did I get the rat out because I worried endlessly until I solved it or was my husband right to not worry because look it’s solved now ( cause I solved it!! )

It feels to me that it’s much better to be in the group of people who don’t worry non stop because life seems to always work out.

I wish I could be the non-worrier type.

But at least I got the rat out, so we’re calling it a win for today.

Yes to resilience and not giving up. Yes to rat-free cars!

#yearofyes #karenikayearofyes