The Best Part of this Week: The best part of this week was getting my hair done on Friday.
I celebrate: date night with my lovely husband on Saturday
I am grateful for: my coach who’s been helping me help myself.
This week, I exercised: I’ve been riding, climbing, doing core, arms, restorative yoga and stretching regularly.
This week, I said yes to: being vulnerable even when it was hard.
I said no to: sitting with the discomfort of unhappiness.
I honored my values (love, learn, peace, service, gratitude): the last few weeks have been such a roller coaster. i am working hard to honor my values and i am finding that they sometimes clash with each other.
Top Goals Review:
Work: did stay on top of email, did FOW reviews, did prep for QBR.
Personal: did not really restart journaling plan, looked up a lot of classes but didn’t pick or do one
Family: climbed with J, passed test!, got david to do class, did more SAT with N
My mood this week was: this week, too, was tough and all over the place
I am proud of: getting my lead belay. look at me go!
I release: i am constantly working on releasing so i don’t have to hold on to things but the constant work on myself, constant triggering and then having to do the work again and again is so much.
Here’s what I learned this week: it is not all on my shoulders.
Family photography day is always my favorite. I love these people so much. On days like this where I get nothing done and feel frustrated about having to drive from errand to errand, it’s a good reminder that I am so lucky to get to drive around these people I love so much.
Yes to perspective. Yes to gratitude. Yes to being in the pictures.
Date night tonight with my awesome husband. Every phase of raising kids comes with challenges and rewards and I’ve liked and struggled with all of them.
But this phase might be one of my favorites. Our kids are old enough to have deep, intellectual and emotional conversations with and they are still interested in talking to us.
And they are old enough to leave home without a sitter for date night.
I’ve been listening to Brené Brown’s podcast series that she did with her siblings for the anniversary of “The Gifts of Imperfection” and feeling so much gratitude for all the reminders and honest conversations.
There’s a lot of new at my work and I’m adjusting and learning and readjusting a lot lately. As someone who has a core value around service and helpfulness and struggles with worthiness, it can be a doozy to deal with constant adjusting to a new person and a new rhythm. It’s often 3 steps forward and 2 steps back and sometimes vice versa so it feels like so much effort for so little progress.
And it can be easy to beat myself up for not getting it faster, not landing things, not making enough progress, and on and on.
Instead I am working hard to release the pressure and trying not to beat myself up. I am showing up and trying to do a good job. Listening to the feedback and adjusting as best as I can. I am showing up and doing the work. That’s the best I can do at the moment. And when I know better, I’ll do better.
And every day I am working on letting the frustration and disappoinment go so I can start my days fresh and show up to do the work again instead of carrying it around with me all day, every day, everywhere.
Onward.
Yes to releasing what doesn’t serve me. Yes to being patient with myself.
I realized today that we have about three weeks left before school starts. I am not a huge fan of transitions because I am such a routine person and transitions usually require a change of routine.
So the beginning of each school year is tough for me. I expect this one will be even tougher as uncertainty is rising again in California.
This is just to remind myself to take it day by day and that the last two years have been all about changing and pivoting. I can do this.
Last night, I went to the climbing gym with my husband and decided it was time to take the lead test. He’d been wanting me to take it for several months and when I saw this route at the pipe ( the one the person is climbing in the photo ) I was relatively confident I could make it happen. So we did it and I passed.
I am now lead certified.
Major achievement for someone who is not the least bit athletic.
It was a great lesson in bravery, having faith in myself and attempting things before I thought I was fully ready. It was a good signal to my nervous system that in fact I was ready and I wasn’t giving myself credit. So there we are.
Yesterday I got to sit outside and do art and document our stories and read and journal and relax. I’m finding that I need this reflection and recovery time more and more lately. It’s a way to fill my cup, assess where I am and what I’d like to add to and remove from my life. It helps me be more intentional and more grateful and just in general more present in my life.
Again and again I find that if I don’t take time to fill my own cup, it changes how I show up for others.
Weekly Intention: My intention this week is take breaks. Last week was tough and I worked too much and tried to do too much. I need to go slower and take more breaks.
This month’s intention is:July: Yes to adventures: Create some adventure. Go places. Do things. Hug your people. Take chances. July is almost over. Any more chances for me to take?
One way I will leap this week: maybe finally find and start taking a class?
One boundary I will set this week: I will take 30 minutes for myself every night this week.
One area where I will go deeper this week: maybe i can pass the lead test this week?
What do I need to sit with this week? tiredness.
I am looking forward to: booking one more summer vacation.
Focus onCore Desired Feelings (lighter, kinder, enough, magic, wild): oh man i’ve been diving deep into all this.
This week’s challenges: Tuesday will be a long, long day.
Top Goals:
Work: stay on top of email, FOW reviews, prep for QBR.
Personal: restart journaling plan, find one class.
Family: climb with J, get david to do class, do more SAT with N
The sky was all over the place today. Made me think about how sun finds a way to shine through. And how there are always some clouds even on a clear day. And how clouds can make the sky more beautiful and more interesting all at the same time.
Not sure what it all means. But that’s what was on my mind today.
The Best Part of this Week: I’ve been very intermittent with these, this year. But I still enjoy doing them when I do them. Best part of this week was Friday and getting some downtime.
I celebrate: getting to have in-person coffee with a friend
I am grateful for: open conversations around vulnerability
This week, I exercised: I’ve been riding, climbing, doing core, arms, restorative yoga and stretching regularly.
This week, I said yes to: talking through things.
I said no to: not much this week.
I honored my values (love, learn, peace, service, gratitude):this was a tough week and i learned a lot.
Top Goals Review: (these are a few weeks old but that’s ok)
Work: i did all my work goals.
Personal: not doing awesome on journaling or class
Family: climbed with J, got david to enroll in class, did not plan milestones for N
My mood this week was: really tough and low week this week
I am proud of: i am proud of making it through.
I release: i released so much this week and i have so much more to release
Here’s what I learned this week: no one can give me what i won’t give myself.
