Thanksgiving isn’t a holiday that resonates with me. I don’t dislike it the way I dislike Halloween but I also don’t love it the way I love Christmas. So it’s just a meh holiday.
What I do love is taking a whole day off to do nothing without feeling bad about it.
Today I scrapped, journaled and did a puzzle. All while watching six hours of TV.
We had an early Thanksgiving today because Jake is off to an adventure. I loved being with my people and I am also looking forward to a quiet few days, reading, resting and being grateful.
I have not climbed in about ten days; it was really nice being back at the gym.
This morning little boy’s bus didn’t show up so I ended up having to drive him to school unexpectedly. It ended up being a two-hour trip and a lot of rush hour driving. I did not miss driving or rush hour. And while I wasn’t excited about making the trip, I felt grateful that it happened to be a light morning for me and I didn’t have to panic about work.
The feeling of ease is still here and I’m still practicing so much more awareness and release than before. I am so incredibly grateful for it.
I used to have so much anxiety on Sunday nights. I used to feel the loss of the weekend and the impending weight of the week ahead of me.
I don’t feel that way anymore.
One of the side effects of the work I’ve been doing has been the calm feeling of being in the present moment. I am here now and I am doing the best I can with this moment.
Tomorrow I will wake up and deal with that moment.
I woke up feeling bleh this morning and continued to hold on to that feeling all day. So, as a result, I didn’t get anything done, nor did I manage to put myself into a decent mood.
People say the seasons don’t change in California but they do. It.mightbbe more subtle but it’s there. Sometimes change can be hard to see when it’s gradual. You have to be willing to look closer.
Working in growth today. Understanding how to find my boundaries and how to know where to stop and where to keep pushing. When to lean in and when to walk away.
We’ve had so many small and big things to celebrate this week and yet there’s always more to work on and more to do so we haven’t taken enough time to stop and really pat ourselves in the back.
To take a moment and really celebrate. To shine a spotlight and really soak in it, even if for a moment.
We need to do that more often. I want to do it more often. I want to celebrate my people and our wins, small or big. In fact I want to celebrate huge.
Because there are and will continue to be losses too. There always are. And when they come they have no problem taking our breath away and making sure that we focus on them fully.
So the wins…. they deserve as much attention if not more. They may not make as big a scene about it, but that’s even more reason to make sure we take the time and honor them appropriately.
I was talking to my son about reflection and journaling yesterday. For me, journaling is a way to hear myself think out loud. For some, it’s a way to look back and see their growth. For others it’s a way to discharge emotions. I do those too. But for me the biggest advantage is a connection with myself. Once I know what I am thinking, it’s often easier for me to solve it. Or to let it go.
Knowing is the first step and journaling is usually my path there.