There’s something magical about watching the people you love sleeping. They look so peaceful, so uncomplicated and so innocent. I look at them and want to pour all my love into them.
And just.like that, officially on vacation for this year. This is my favorite time.if year. I get to wind all the way down and reflect and plan and dream.
I’ve been thinking about expectations a lot. And how I want to work towards not having so many expectations allows me to create a space where people and situations can delight me instead of disappoint me.
If I expect nothing, at worst I get what I expect and at best people surprise and delight me.
We usually go climbing Mondays and Thursdays. This is a very long week at work and I’ve been exercising a lot so I didn’t even feel like going tonight but then I decided it was good to get out of the house and move my body.
I promised myself that I would stick to easy routes only. I usually try to go up a grade with each climb but my plan tonight was to stick to easy.
So instead of.going harder I ended up going faster. I did 2-3 routes back to back in the time I would have done one and ended the night with twice as many routes total.
Which was a lesson in remembering that there are different ways of pushing yourself and if you’re not in the mood to do one, you can still do the other.
Meal prep day. (I made vegetables too, they were still in the oven when I took this shot.) If I have food in the fridge during the week, I eat said food for lunch.
If I don’t have food prepped, I eat pretzels and cheese sticks.
The older I get the less performative I want my life to be. The more inside out I want to live. The more grounded I want to feel. Calm, spacious, and kind. Ease and release.
I keep visualizing balloons lately and letting them go. People, thoughts, worries having them all float away.