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 Year of Yes – 240
Family photo day. Over ten years ago, I wrote an article for an online photography site. It was about how I take all the pictures in my family so I am never in any of them and that if something were to happen to me, my kids would not have photos to remember me by. That day I vowed to get in the picture more and started our family photo tradition. Ten years and more and we are still at it. My favorite tradition. Yes to photos. #yearofyes #karenikayearofyes  Year of Yes – 239
There are so many moments in every single day and I experience so much. Anxiety, stress, exhaustion, elation, joy, celebration, pride, sorrow, frustration, love and more. I find that there days where I have small moments of each of these. What a full life. Yes to all of it. #yearofyes #karenikayearofyes  Year of Yes – 238
I have long been a fan of Tara Brach and have read all her books and listened to many many of her class recordings from years ago. Last week, I discovered a “new to me” book called “Trusting the Gold” which has some of her practices and each of them were profound and helpful to me. In one chapter she talks about Zen master Sono who was known to lead people to enlightenment by using the affirmation “thank you for everything; I have no complaints whatsoever.” I loved this so much that I added a daily reminder to my calendar at 2pm with the exact phrase. And every day since when it pops up, I smile and say it out loud to myself. It’s been an excellent way to ground myself and remind myself of the way I want to be in the world. Yes to gratitude. #yearofyes #karenikayearofyes  Year of Yes – 237
Today was the first day in eighteen months that I was home alone with both kids at school. I was back to work from home and we all survived it. I kept reminding myself to go slow, to listen more, speak less and to have patience. So far so good. I got some things done and didn’t finish others but tomorrow is a new day and more will get done. Yes to pacing ourselves. #yearofyes #karenikayearofyes  Year of Yes – 236
I miss the sand under my toes and the ocean washing over me. Last day of vacation today. Let’s see if I can carry over this zen feeling into work. At least this is no meeting week so I expect things to be quiet and that will help. I feel very quiet right now in my head and I am really thankful for it. I feel grateful and present and slow in a good way. I tend to rush through things and try to do as much as possible in my day. I tend to stress about things going differently than planned. I worry all the time about small annoyances of daily life. About having to return packages, making appointments, etc. Right now, I am not worried about anything. Just being here, now, I am enjoying being in the backyard with the sun in my face and the blankets on my lap as I breathe the fresh air. And I know there’s a strong chance tomorrow I will be hectic again, frustrated with the small things, annoyed with myself for trying to please people, and disappointed in myself for letting people down. I will be stressed and overwhelmed. So I want to remember this moment here, now. This serenity is rare for me and I know that documenting it will help me pause and remember. Yes to calm. #yearofyes #karenikayearofyes  Year of Yes – 235
I have been off work for a week and three days. I have one more day off tomorrow and then I’ll be back to meetings and emails and more. In the meantime, I’ve managed to really wind down and have been doing a lot of mindless art while I listen to books. I’ve also been reading and exercising. And that’s it. It’s been really nice to slow all the way down and to empty my mind. I don’t know how quicky things will fill up again once Wednesday comes and in the meantime I am just enjoying being here now. Yes to the quiet and yes to mandalas. #yearofyes #karenikayearofyes  Year of Yes – 234
Today was the last day of summer. Tomorrow we wake up at 6 and get a new school year started. 7th and 11th grades. Yet another reminder of how quickly time passes. Here’s to an excellent school year, full of friendship and joy and learning and curiosity. Here’s to not getting sick and not having to be remote. Here’s to classes that are interesting and teachers who are one of a kind. I love that my kids go to a school they love, have friends they enjoy and teachers who love teaching. Yes to another school year. #yearofyes #karenikayearofyes  Year of Yes – 233
We are almost at September. Just a few more days and then it’s the last quarter of this year. September feels like the beginning of a new year with the kids going back to school, transitions and new routines and my birthday. It’s an opportunity to step back and assess what’s working and what’s not. To adjust my routine, my perspective, and my goals. 2021 is not over yet. Every single day I get to choose who I want to be and what I want my life to look like. It’s never too late and never too early. It’s always just the right moment to do whatever it is I want to do. Yes. It is. #yearofyes #karenikayearofyes  Year of Yes – 232
Both of the kids went to school today for orientation. It was the first time they were at school since March 2020. As I dropped off my younger son, I felt both excited and anxious. I was happy to have him finally see some of his friends in person. And I also know that many kids are already getting sick now that they are back at school. My older one took public transportation so that also comes with risk. I am still grateful that they got to go and be with their friends at school for a few hours. A tiny version of normalcy is still better than what the last year has been like. And I really really hope that as they fully return to school, on Monday, they can both be safe and healthy and one step closer to thriving. Yes to school. Love school. #yearofyes #karenikayearofyes  Year of Yes – 231
A while ago I wrote about a reminder I keep above my desk. “Will this matter in five years?” It’s a way I help ground myself in remembering how to prioritize the important over the urgent or even the irrelevant. Another mantra I use all the time is: “it’s not about you.” I can easily take everything personally. When someone around me is sad, angry, frustrated, or stressed, I tend to absorb the blame. Or find ways to make it my fault. Even when it clearly isn’t. So I’ve been practicing saying “It’s not about you.” Sometimes I say it out loud. Sometimes I say it in my head as someone is speaking or as I read email. I need the reminder again and again because when I think it’s about me, I react and my prefrontal cortex shuts down. I cannot be kind or generative from that place. And when I remember that it’s not about me, then I can approach with empathy and kindness because service is one of my core values and I love to help others. The difference is substantial. And honestly it’s never about me. Even when it’s a reaction to something I did or said, how others react is all about them not about me. Yes to remembering it’s not about me. #yearofyes #karenikayearofyes  Year of Yes – 230
I painted for hours today and it felt exquisite. I didn’t have any goals, didn’t complete any pieces of art. I just used the gelliplate and had hours and hours of fun while listening to a book. It’s not often that I give myself permission to just do something without an end goal. I tend to like finishing things. Checking off items. Today I did none of that. And it was marvelous. Yes to art without an end goal. #yearofyes #karenikayearofyes  Year of Yes – 229
Closed down the gym tonight. It’s been a week since I did any exercise and I really needed this tonight. Not excited about the back to school rush but also grateful that my kids might possibly be going back to some semblance of a classroom again. Both nervous and excited. Yes to doing it anyway. #yearofyes #karenikayearofyes |
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