Chaos

The pace of my life has changed drastically in the last week. Two weeks ago, Jake and I had several interviews and a busy week that ended with his birthday. I remember feeling a bit bummed on the weekend thinking we had no interviews scheduled for the week and worrying that I might not be able to get a job after all.

He started his part-time job on Monday and I started mine on Tuesday. I still looked all over monster, hotjobs and craigslist for more full time positions getting more depressed by the minute.

Then, within minutes, a friend of Jake’s decided to come for three days. His mom decided to come for a day. I got three calls and an interview. I went to the interview, which lasted much longer than expected and ended with my promising to learn part of a scripting language I had barely used previously. From the moment I left the interview on Wednesday to Friday’s interview I spent my minutes between my part-time job and studying for the interview. Jake ended up hanging out with his friend on his own.

Friday morning, the day of my 29th birthday, I woke up at 6 to go to my part-time job, worked till noon, came home to study some more for the closed-book exam and then went to a coffee shop by the company’s building to wait for the interview while Jake dropped off his friend at the airport.

The interview lasted from 2:30 to 9pm. It involved coding for a few hours and talking about details for another few. I came home to several days’ worth of TiVo and left the couch only to go to bed until Saturday night when my mother in law arrived and took us to dinner and a beach walk.

And this was supposed to be the quiet week.

Thank you for all who wished me a happy birthday. My first in a new home, a new town, with my new car and, now, my new job.

Best and the Brightest

I’ve been applying for a lot of jobs lately and I have noticed two patterns:
1. Everyone is looking for people who have a lot of experience
2. Everyone only hires ‘the best and the brightest’

Seriously, if you owned a company and were trying to hire people, would you claim to hire ‘the so-so’?

I’ve been thinking a lot about what I want out of a job. Some days I feel like taking any job so I can have the money to pay for my rent. Other days, I feel like holding out. I try to remind myself that life is too short and that I deserve a job I love, a job that I would actually enjoy doing.

My requirements aren’t that complicated: I want to work with people who’re happy to be there and I want to be learning about something new often. The something new doesn’t have to be technical. I could work in a new industry and learn about that or I could work with a new programming language and learn that but if I’m not learning, I will quickly get bored and disillusioned.

You’ll notice money isn’t in my list of requirements. Assuming I did get a job I loved, I am willing to work for much less money than the guy next door. I don’t really care if I can’t afford a yearly vacation to Maui if it means I get up every morning and am thrilled to go to work.

Maybe I’m asking for too much?

Sip of Wine

I can’t drink alcohol. As a teenager in Istanbul, I used to be able to drink Safari and peach juice but only when I absolutely had to. Since I’ve been in the States, I get a weird sensation with every sip of alcohol. My whole body burns and I feel like my clothes are strangling me, especially my underwear. I’ve been known to take off all my clothes after a wine cooler.

I’ve tried many different forms of alcohol, anything from wine to beer to hard alcohol to wine coolers. I seem to be okay with shots mostly because they don’t sit in my throat for an extended period of time, so when forced (or let’s say strongly urged) I will do shots. I only drank lemonade at my wedding and hated the sip of wine I had to have as part of the ceremony.

Recently, I decided it was important that I be able to drink wine and possibly beer. In an effort to help me, Jake took me to a local shop and we bought a bottle of Chardonnay and a bottle of Merlot. Last night, we opened the white wine and poured a glass for each of us. Fully determined, I drank the entire glass.

If I said I enjoyed it, I’d be lying. But I did manage to keep my clothes on and I didn’t chug the glass, I sipped it slowly. I’m told after a few glasses, I might even start enjoying the experience.

Random II

Looking good is all about feeling good. People who are self-confident and comfortable in their skin look much prettier and more attractive than people who display the conventional features of beauty. I wish there was a trick to becoming more comfortable in one’s own skin.

Walking around in my neighborhood, in search of Mars, tonight, Jake and I saw three deer and one rabbit. We saw a total of six cars during the hour-long walk. But, alas, no Mars.

Do you take pictures? Have you visited any of the 50 United States? Come on, contribute to 50 States. It only takes five minutes to email and you’d make me one happy person.

Happy birthday, Jake. I love you with all my heart.

Fleeting Moments

Lately, I seem to be suffering from a problem that only occurs when I have too much free time on my hands. I get fleeting moments of inspiration where I want to work very hard and finish a task I’ve been putting off. I’ll be sitting in a movie theater and think that as soon as I get home, I’ll write that code I promised Jake, or that I’ll update parts of my site that are outdated. Or that I’ll finish the presents I wanted to send to people who hosted us throughout the cross country trip. Or that I want to sit and write. I make mental lists. For that fleeting moment, I feel that I can do all those things. I feel energetic and enthused about my projects. I feel driven.

And then the moment passes. I come home and read my mail and don’t really feel like doing much else. I take a break and read for a while, hoping the moment will come back, but it doesn’t. Not until a day later, when least expected.

When I’m working I don’t seem to have time for these fleeting moments. I am generally too busy for them. I run from one place to another getting things done instead of thinking about getting things done.

Normalcy

After a week of non-stop unpacking, our apartment is beginning to look almost normal. We still haven’t hung any of our pictures but all the computers are installed, so are the TVs and stereo, every box is unpacked except for two. You can even walk around without tripping over stuff. Part of me is happy to finally get to slow down and take some down time during the day, the other part of me knows this means having to finally get a job. That part wishes the unpacking could go on forever.

Driving isn’t going so well. I know millions of people do it and I know that technically I am capable of doing it, but it’s really stressful and quite painful. I hate feeling as incompetent as the car makes me feel. Only two weeks to the exam and I am sure to fail it.

Looking for a job is yet another nightmare. I haven’t truly interviewed since college. Transfering within Goldman didn’t really count as I didn’t have to sell myself so much. TFA didn’t count because it was a completely different ballgame. I’m really not looking forward to the hours of interviews and the thousands of resume renditions. Fun, fun.

It’s amazing how little we tend to enjoy downtime. We’re either busy with the job or desperately looking for one. Seems like a sad existence. No wonder I prefer to work for myself.

Nice and Not So Easy

I seem to remember Heather having a post about dying her hair black that I should have paid much more attention to before I used the Nice’N’Easy bottle I bought yesterday. My brand new tub is now covered with black stains that threaten to stay permanently. I knew there was a reason to let the gray grow.

After a morning at the DMV, I am now the proud owner of a temporary California license, my very first in the United States. My driving test is scheduled for the end of the month and I am scared shitless.

I started unpacking my books yesterday and it’s amazing how happy the act made me. I love my books, just looking at the titles and the authors filled me with joy. It made the everlasting unpacking considerably more fun.

Anxious

After five full days of trucking down all the major highways between Boston and San Diego, we made it back to our new home. One night at Audrey and Tom’s and another at Ashlie and Travis’ meant that we only paid two nights of hotel fees. Even including the gas and paying people to unload the truck, we still saved around 3000 over the price the moving companies quoted us.

On the fourth day, we even managed to take a side trip and see the Painted Desert and the Meteor Crater in Arizona, two sites we had missed in July. Besides the severe allergies to the truck, my body handled the trip quite well. The birdie played, ate, or slept the whole way. He did get quite a bit more anxious when the sun set and started climbing to the top of his cage. After four months of separation, he’s now with his family, in his new home. He should enjoy the attention and freedom until a dog is added to our family.

The last three days have been a frenzy of unpacking. Now that we’re finally here, I seem to have gone back to my usual rushing self and am quickly getting worried about settling down, finding a job, and such. We’ve already got our phone, cable and electricity connected. I’ve unpacked the kitchen, clothes, and bathroom. The TiVo is connected and merrily recording. Since my computer broke during the move, I even bought a new one last night. On the surface, our lives seem to have started.

Now, if only I could shake this anxious feeling in my stomach.

Not Homeless Anymore

After four days of extensive searching, we signed the lease on a place that was way above our planned budget but we got an unbelivable list of amenities, including two pools, two gyms, free yoga and pilates lessons, and a movie theather that shows films twice a week with free sode and popcorn, oh and free coffee each morning till 11. And they let me get a dog, which is appearantly a huge luxury in San Diego. All this in the very complex we live. We figured we could love like this for a year and then depending on how the job and living situation works out we will adjust accordingly.

At least we will have a home and a bed to call our own tonight. Cross your fingers. Next order of business is moving our stuff here, getting serious about learning to drive (this is just me as Jake is normal and drives perfectly. I have about 20 days under my belt and am not fully ready to make the progress to daily driving). Not to mention, I need a job.

If you have any advice on whether to get a company or UHaul stuff ourselves, we are open to suggestions, and of course, if you have a job to offer, I am open for those too.

Change

Back in New York City

After leaving our hard-worked car in the garage, we came back to New York City on Friday night. We spent the night at Thirty on Thirty, right by our old neighborhood.

It feels eerie being in the city but not having a home to go to. I spent all of Saturday morning at the public library, surfing, while Jake took his exam. In the afternoon, I went to Jason’s, our kind host for the evening, and had a great time installing Linux on my laptop. (yes, I know how geeky that sounds, but it really made me happy since I am thinking of getting the SAIR certification)

Also, thanks to Jason’s kindness, I got to put up all of the pictures from the first six legs of our trip. I put up photos from audrey and tom’s wedding and archived all the logs from the last month. You can find the trip logs on the same page as the pictures.

Last night we went to see Finding Nemo which was really well-animated and rendered. The shots of Sydney were lifelike. Ellen DeGeneres did a great job. The script was cheesy but funny. All in all, definitely worthwhile.

Tonight and tomorrow, we’re staying with another gracious host in Jersey. On Tuesday, we fly to the Caymans. I don’t think I can log in from there so I assume there will be no updates for a week. We then come to NYC for two days and then fly to Turkey. June will hopefully be a hectic but fun and relaxing month.

I have read some books since the last excerpt: Catch Me If You Can, Alice in Wonderland, Nickel and Dimed. Look At Me and The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe. Excerpts to come at a later time.

While I’m gone, you can entertain yourself with the aforementioned pictures or the book excerpts, or the numerous archives.

Jobless and Homeless

We have officially left our apartment of seven years and moved to our temporary living situation in Boston. Jake’s parents have been gracious enoug to let us leave our stuff here and stay here till we get on the road.

We used flatrate.com and they were amazing. Everything was handled professionally and executed perfectly. Now we’re looking for a car and we need to find one soon since our first car trip, down to Florida, is a little over a week away. Any ideas on how we can find a used car? We’re using the paper and craigslist for now. All ideas are welcome!