Yellow is my favorite color.

Got to spend so much of today with my sister again and it was such a gift. We sat in the sun and ate ice cream. We walked. We talked. We laughed.

And it was sunny the whole time.

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I bought more flowers today. I am still working on recovering. While some parts were faster than I’d hoped, others are going more slowly than I’d like. Teaching me the value of patience.

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My beautiful sister is visiting. It was such a joy to get to spend the day with her and talk talk talk for hours.

What a gift.

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I believe the best thing we can do for other people is to make sure they feel seen and heard. it takes time and love and caring and kindness and patience and more than anything it takes being open. Open to your way not being the only way. Open to seeing others. It’s who I want to be. I want people around me to feel seen and loved and appreciated just as they are.

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This is where I love now and I work here and I paint here and eat here and practice my letters and my Korean and read and watch TV. And I sleep here.

I’ve lived on this couch for almost two weeks now.

Today was my first day back to working. I took it easy and I am ready to nap now. One day at a time.

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Flowers and paintbrushes making me happy.

I am ready to be done with recovery.

All the respect to people who have to do this, it takes mental fortitude and patience.

I was also thinking today about how we are all really living our lives alone. I am lucky to have an amazing and loving family who have been taking care of me, checking up on me, sitting with me. Kind friends who message me, offer to come sit with me and bring whatever I might wish. I’m really lucky.

But in the end I am experiencing this all by myself. Only I know how it feels for me and I have to make it through, no one else can do it for me.

It’s easier to be alone with other people who love you around you but in the end all we really have is ourselves and that’s the biggest reason to love yourself, to know yourself and to have your own back. Because we experience so much of life on our own. It’s much easier if we can be our own friend through it.

Maybe I’m not making much sense with the lack of sleep but it makes sense in my head 🙂

Trying to hold it together over here and still very grateful for lack of physical pain.

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