Ok I am officially furious. I am done with this total mess of weight gain. I have to tell you it’s not as much about the weight (though, of course, that plays a part.) as it is about working so hard and having the results go in the opposite direction. I still exercise 5K every day.
This might not seem like a big feat to most people. But it is to me. I hate exercise. This week I hit my 300th consecutive day of exercise. I’ve been doing this for so long now and yet I still loathe it. I am not looking forward to it. I am just tolerating it. And I know it’s good for me and it will help keep my metabolism high so I suck it up and I do it. Day after day. I show up and I do it. Because I do it on the treadmill, I know that I am not doing it halfway. I am doing this. I am working hard at it.
And yet.
And yet it does not appear to be working lately. I don’t buy the plateau argument, nor doI buy the muscle one. Something isn’t working right here and I am committed to fixing it. I haven’t come this far and I am not working this hard for these results. Something will change.
and here’s this week’s card:
Healthy for Life is a weekly project for 2011. You can read more about it here.
So I don’t think this week even qualifies as a weight loss since it’s so inconsequential that had I sneezed while the wii calculated, we might have gotten weight-gain. But alas, it’s better than seeing the opposite I suppose. I will admit that I am getting a bit fed up with not seeing progress, especially considerable progress.
I am doing all the same things I’ve been doing and I know I have to take things up a notch but I can’t seem to find the motivation/energy to do so. And yet, I am so not ready to give up on those last 10 pounds. I am annoyed at the amount of work I am doing without results. But I also know this is forever work and I will just keep doing it. I am pretty much on a routine now and I am not walking away from this.
Not ever.
Because I’ve already put in so much effort and time and sweat into this and I refuse to watch it unwind. I think this is more of a talking-to to myself than anything but sometimes that’s what I need so here we are. It’s week 29 and I am barely past the halfway point so we keep going!
and here’s this week’s card:
Healthy for Life is a weekly project for 2011. You can read more about it here.
I should not be writing this right now as I am feeling grouchy and tired and things never look so great when one’s moody but alas here we are. Another week of no loss. A tiny gain but that’s not even the point. Anyhow I won’t be whining about it.
The exercise is still hard but I am doing it each morning and taking it as matter-of-factly as I can. I get up there and I do it. I don’t stop, I don’t whine, I don’t postpone. I do it and then I am done. And then I am grateful it’s done. Towards the end of the day I’m a bit sad cause I know it will soon be another day and I will have to exercise again. I’m still watching movies and reading books while I exercise. They really do help. Especially the more fun art movies. Or when I am in a good part of my book.
Food’s been so so. I am not eating as much or as well as I should. I still focus on the vegetables, fruits and salads. I am eating some peanut butter, chicken and a little cheese for my protein. I know I could use more. It’s the one item on my todo list that seems to regularly be ignored. But I will prioritize it soon as I know it’s key for the next phase.
and here’s this week’s card:
Healthy for Life is a weekly project for 2011. You can read more about it here.
So here we are. Another week and another gain. A big one even. I don’t know what’s going on. Yes, I am eating a tiny bit worse than usual but it’s not like I am downing donuts or anything. Alas, it is what it is. I stick to the plan and maybe go easier on the peanut butter.
The exercise has been hard, too but I am totally sticking to it. 3.12 miles every single day no matter how tired or crappy I feel. No excuses, no whining, I just get up and do it. I’ve gone back to reading most days while I am on the machine because I am running out of videos and I am also beginning to enjoy my books again. I certainly still do not enjoy the running however.
I am not entirely sure how to get to the last ten pounds I’ve been struggling to lose. I feel like the last two months (or maybe even three) have been losing and gaining and losing and gaining. Not really making any forward progress. And I am already at the maximum of where I feel I can take the exercise thing right now so I am going to focus on food as it’s the only thing I feel I can do. I know weights would help but I don’t feel ready for them yet. So food, it is.
and here’s this week’s card:
Healthy for Life is a weekly project for 2011. You can read more about it here.
Well June came and went uneventfully. I lost a bit, gained a bit, made no difference and then lost some and gained some. What a bummer. It feels like the plateau is definitely here but I am really refusing to acknowledge it cause I hate the idea of plateauing at this point.
The exercise has been going well. I did 3.12 miles every day and I am able to get through it without a lot of pain. Though I still dread it every single day. I do it anyway. I’m still doing the crunches, leg lifts, afternoon walks, too. I don’t think I will be adding anything to the exercise pile for July. I feel tapped out there for now.
I could do better on the food. I am repeating the coffee image this week because I’ve been drinking more of it and eating more graham crackers than usual. I am tried and too wiped to make a simple meal. I don’t eat cookies but I am still not eating well enough to get the energy and nutrition I need. I think this is really the area I need to focus on for the next few months to make sure there is progress. Since this is where I am lacking the most, it’s also the area that I think is responsible for the lack of progress in weight loss (and good health obviously.).
and here’s this week’s card:
Healthy for Life is a weekly project for 2011. You can read more about it here.
So here we are a perfectly uneventful week. I must admit that the last two months have been bleh. No considerable weight loss or change even though I’ve been working diligently and eating relatively well. Alas, I might have hit that infamous plateau finally. But I am not ready to give up just yet.
The good news is regardless of whether I lose more weight or not, I have definitely changed my metabolism and I am much healthier now. I take an average of almost 11,000 steps a day from a mere 2,000 before I began this journey. That’s a considerable difference. I stopped eating crappy food like take-out or chocolate (I stopped eating a lot of chocolate, I do still eat some occasionally of course.) I eat salads or veggies daily and fruits, too. I could definitely do better on the food front but this effort overall has been really good for me.
My hope for the next few months is to take it up one more notch to get myself over that plateau. I am already doing a lot exercise-wise and I don’t want to change or add so I will work on the food. Eating healthier and more whole foods. Let’s see if it makes a difference.
and here’s this week’s card:
Healthy for Life is a weekly project for 2011. You can read more about it here.
Well I must admit that the food was actually not much better than most. I was grouchy late last week so I ended up eating more graham crackers and coffee than usual. I even ate a chocolate bar. But, alas, the Wii appears to think that didn’t affect my weight negatively. Who knows? I know it’s nor reliable but I am not complaining since last week was such a gain. It is what it is.
I’m still eating my salads and chicken. And for a brief moment this week I had decided not to have any more coffee but let’s just say that it didn’t last 24 hours. I am not even going to make excuses. Instead I will focus on making sure all the other food I consume is healthy and whole and nutritious to make up for my coffee time. I will also stop eating spoonfuls of peanut butter for my protein intake, there must be something healthier that I can eat instead.
Exercise is going ok. 3.12 miles a day still. Some days are exceptionally hard and others are not so bad. I have finally reached the blue zone in Nike+ and I am quite proud of that. I’ve been thinking about next year but decided it’s still far away so I won’t stress yet. I’ll focus on 2011.
and here’s this week’s card:
Healthy for Life is a weekly project for 2011. You can read more about it here.
As much as I know the Wii is unreliable and can be off anywhere from 0 to 5 lbs, it’s annoying to see that I’ve gained all the weight I lost and more. I tried to weigh myself several times this week and the numbers just stayed like that. Oh well. I am still working and eating better and taking at least 10,000 steps every day. That’s the best I can do for now. I have faith that things will turn around. In the meantime, I walk down my path and stay focused.
I’m still eating my salads and chicken and trying to do a better job. With the exception of the last 48 hours, I’ve also done better on the graham crackers. I’ve been only eating them with breakfast and eating more nutritious food for the other meals. The coffee is still on three times a day but it’s going to stay that way for a while. It’s too ingrained in some of my other rituals so I am not willing to walk away from it yet.
When I look back upon the last eight months, I cannot believe I’ve been exercising for that long. I cannot believe it’s a part of my life now. It’s a priority and something I consistently put first. I am quite proud of that regardless of what the Wii says.
and here’s this week’s card:
Healthy for Life is a weekly project for 2011. You can read more about it here.
Well June started with a bang. The first day I ended up forgetting to set my nike+ so I exercised way longer and then the second day I felt way too tired and barely made it through. But I am still at it and now up to 3.12 miles as day which is 5K so I am quite amazed that I can do it. I’m on 245th consecutive day and have exercised more than 600miles. That’s mind blowing for someone like me. On thing that’s been helping a ton on the exercise is the classes I’m taking. I have a lot of art videos to watch so they keep my mind occupied as I work out. Though this hasn’t done wonders for the reading since that’s what I normally do when I am exercising. Alas, whatever works, right?
On the food front, I haven’t done a great job last week of following my meal plan. And didn’t make one for this week but I have been writing down everything I am eating and I am focusing on eating more protein and making sure to eat one dish each meal so I eat a salad (often with chicken) for lunch and another meal with protein for dinner. I am still drinking more coffee than I’d like but I’m telling myself that it’s about baby steps. Once I start eating more wholesome food with a good amount of protein, I can then move on to working on the coffee.
I decided that I won’t be buying a clothing item for May. I bought some sandals earlier this month and my mom sent me some clothes, I don’t think I need anything for now. Instead I used that allowance to buy some fun art supplies so I can enjoy them every single day.
and here’s this week’s card:
Healthy for Life is a weekly project for 2011. You can read more about it here.
This is the last week of May. Next week, I move to 3.12 miles a day. I can’t believe I’ve come this far. Even though I am still forcing myself to go on the treadmill and not looking forward to the exercise, something magical happened yesterday. I woke up with a headache and felt terrible. I was dreading the workout but I did it anyway and when I was done, I was surprised to realize that my headache was gone. I felt 100% better. If you had told me exercise would actually make me feel better, I would have said you were lying but here it is. It really worked.
I’ve also made my first meal plan last weekend. Even though most of it has already gone awry, it has helped me keep certain thoughts and priorities at the top of my mind. I definitely ate more protein this week than I have been. I’ve also been eating a lot of salads and generally nutritious food. I will keep at this until it works better and better.
I decided that I won’t be buying a clothing item for May. I bought some sandals earlier this month and my mom sent me some clothes, I don’t think I need anything for now. Instead I used that allowance to buy some fun art supplies so I can enjoy them every single day.
and here’s this week’s card:
Healthy for Life is a weekly project for 2011. You can read more about it here.
I remember that during January I thought June was so far away. June was my big month because once I go to 3.1 miles a day, I am not going to increase the exercise distance each month. It felt ages away and now I can see that in one more week I will be welcoming June. I can see that I exercised for 3.0 miles for 20 consecutive days already. I am flabbergasted. I have exercised for 555 miles (actually more since nike didn’t function properly on a few days.) This is more exercise than I’ve done in all my years prior combined. I am proud of that.
Though I won’t lie. It’s still no fun. I just do it cause I am committed and not because I look forward to it in any way. I’ve also been taking walks in the afternoon which makes sure that I am taking at least 10,000 steps each day. I went to see a nutritionist this week so I am starting to create meal plans next week to make sure I can add some more protein into my daily food intake. I am going to work on it.
As with most things, this is a lifelong journey. It’s about forming new habits, valuing my heath and respecting myself enough to take care of my body. I already work on my soul and my body deserves it, too.
and here’s this week’s card:
Healthy for Life is a weekly project for 2011. You can read more about it here.
Here we are. Another week and gaining everything I lost last week. Weight gain/loss has been pretty uneventful this month. I lose then I gain then I lose it back and always in small amounts. So it can be wii errors. But that’s ok. I went to the doctor this week and she weighed me and I have lost 30lbs. since I last saw her. Not that I didn’t believe the Wii or my clothes but there’s something firm and tangible about getting it confirmed by a third party. It made me feel good.
The exercise has been hard lately. I find myself tired but just get on the treadmill anyway. 3.0 feels harder than anything I’ve done before but I still keep going. In the last week, I’ve also added an afternoon stroll with my sons. This guarantees I take 10K steps a day which has been my goal for a while now. I am doing 33 leg lifts in each leg and 11 crunches a day. I’m also seeing the nutritionist next ween which I hope will result in a good weekly food plan. Let’s see.
This is the other piece of clothing I bought last week. The one for April. Simple and long so I can wear it over tights. I’ve already worn it and love it. Here’s to the lifelong journey of getting and staying healthy.
and here’s this week’s card:
Healthy for Life is a weekly project for 2011. You can read more about it here.
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