Daily Diary – September 2 2010

A few leftovers from the aquarium.

This week has been a whirlwind and I don’t think it will let up soon. Jake’s parents arrived today which is great for the kids and for us too since we get to go on dates every night. But it also means that I am far from my regular schedule and thus everything piles up more and it takes me that much longer to go back on schedule. But oh well.

Here’s a snapshot I got while David was telling me about something.

And here’s Nathaniel playing with the alphabet bug. He loves any and all toys that make noise. He’ll get them to sing and then play with other things while he listens to the music and then when it stops, he goes back, presses whatever buttons he needs to so the song restarts and then he’ll walk away and play with other things again.

Which of course drives me absolutely insane.

but i do love him so.

So today was hectic at work, i went to a kindergarten coffee early morning for a tiny bit, nathaniel napped, i worked, craziness ensued, we went to pick up david, went to the doctor, rushed back home, in-laws came, played with kids, i made a layout, dinner, bathtime, bedtime, and then jake and i went out to a quickie (and bad) dinner and then came home to watch a little tv together and that was the end of the day. phew! Now I am about to head to bed so I can wake up at 5:45 and do it over again.

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that my in-laws are here and Jake and I will get some date nights.
2. I am grateful that I had some time to play with scrappy stuff today. As much as I love paint, I love scrapping even more.
3. I am grateful that I got another stitching sampler in the mail today. Nothing like happy mail.

Two Things David’s Grateful For:
1. making bubba the bear
2. coloring my green dinosaur at school
3. reading the lego catalog with meme (jake’s mom)

Daily Diary – September 1 2010

Oh I look at this photo now and wish so so much we were back in San Diego already. So calm, so happy. So peaceful. Not that I am not now but it looks so nice, doesn’t it?

I’ve been doing a mediocre job taking photos. I try to snap some of Nathaniel in the daytime while David is gone but we’re also struggling with naps since he seems to be taking them later now but I am still confused, so I put him down, I pick him up, then try again. So I forget to take photos.

Then I take ones of David when he comes home and today we practiced smiling again (yes I know, we’ve got a long way to go) and he showed me his Ali the Aligator. And they made a September calendar so we picked out Daddy’s birthday and Mommy’s birthday and MeMe’s (Jake’s mom) birthday, all of which are in September.

And now I am rushing to get it all done before I have to run out to go to book club. Phantom Tollbooth tonight. And I still have to prepare questions. ugh….

But let me also tell you this amazing news!

I love love love My Mind’s Eye products and their team is wonderful and they are also amazing people to work with. I am so truly blessed!

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful for my guest spot with My Mind’s eye. Yey..
2. I am grateful that David and I are reading books together and enjoying it.
3. I am grateful that I have this great artsy hobby and a love of reading. Both of these things are for me and they are good for my soul and make me so happy.

Two Things David’s Grateful For:
1. tracing the numbers on my calendar at school
2. Reading tales of a 4th grade nothing with mommy, the part where he wins the turtle
3. cutting out grass during craft time

Daily Diary – August 31 2010

Nope, I am not out of photos. Just wanted to post something different today. For a brief time, I painted today. For no particular reason. Well with a goal in mind but not cause I have something due or something that I owe. I just wanted to sit and play. So I played. Nice to play for no reason at all. I am not so good with paint and kept chanting in my mind as I painted “Just have fun. it doesn’t have to be perfect. Let it go.” And it worked cause they’re far far far from perfect.

This morning, I drove David to the bus again and we sat and read some more of Phantom Tollbooth. Then I drove back and worked while the little one played. I love watching him play, quietly, engrossed in his play.

In the afternoon, we went to go get David and then he and I read more of the Phantom Tollbooth which I had to finish today since it’s being discussed at book club tomorrow night. And so we sat and I read. Nathaniel got super jealous and kept wanting to come up on the couch. So we sat on the floor and he kept coming and sitting between us and putting his head on David’s lap and whining and trying to get attention. It was a bit annoying but also so very cute.

Then Daddy came home and David was overjoyed.

And they hugged and laughed and played.

Baths, bedtime, dinner, chatting with Jake and here we are, at the end of another day. Perfectly ordinary. Perfect day. Full of gratitude.

Still pondering my September project. I know I haven’t written about July and August, but I promise I haven’t forgotten.

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that I feel much better now. Still coughing a bunch but otherwise well on the road to recovery .
2. I am grateful that David’s had no punching for two days in a row now. He still loves school and is very excited to be there.
3. I am grateful that I made a little time to paint today.

Three Things David’s Grateful For:
1.coloring a schoolbus at school
2. daddy for playing legos with me
3. finishing phnatom tollbooth (we’re starting tales of a fourth grade nothing tomorrow)

Daily Diary – August 30 2010

Well I woke up at the obscene hour of 5am cause Nathaniel would not go back to sleep. So off we went. After a while he relaxed and played while I tried hard to wake up fully. Since I am still sicker than I’d like to be, we drove David to the bus stop and while waiting, I read him some more of the Phantom Tollbooth. Then he went off on his bus and Nathaniel and I came home. Soon after the cleaning ladies showed up and our house really really needed it. As soon as they were finished upstairs, I put the little boy down who was yawning like crazy by this point. After he woke up and ate a bit, we went off to the doctor for his thumb. Good news is, doctor thinks it was normal staph so nothing to be scared off. Some 1% cortizone, some more of the antibacterial cream and we keep working on it until it disappears. He also checked his ears since Nathaniel has had a runny nose for days now. But clear clear. Yey.

We came home and I tried to work some and Nathaniel played around. He loves these headphones.

And taking them off.

And dragging them along.

I was so tired and spent most of the day. Soon, it was time to get David, so we drove to the stop and I read a bit while we waited and then he showed up. No punching today, yey! But he had fallen down and hurt his leg a bit. So he was sad about that. When we came home, he took out the raccoon he made at school and told us that his homework was to sing to us. He put the puppet on and sang.

He was loving it. He only remembered a few words but I loved watching him and so did Nathaniel.

Picture day is coming up at his school so I practiced smiling with him and we have a long way to go….

Then he decided to sing to his brother.

Who was so happy, he gave him a hug. Look at the love in David’s face.

And more hugs.

These all look like the same photo to normal people I bet. But to me, they all carry subtly different emotions and I adore them each uniquely.

And now they are in bed and I am wiped wiped wiped. I have a bunch more work to do, too. But it’s ok. The doctor was good news, David got no punches, and I survived it all. I’ll consider this a good day!

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that Nathaniel does not have an infection.
2. I am grateful that David likes his school. I hope he makes some new, good friends he likes.
3. I am grateful that the house is all clean and nice. My inlaws are coming this week and I am glad that while it may not be tidy always, at least it’s clean. Gotta start somewhere, right?

Two Things David’s Grateful For:
1. reading the phantom tollbooth book
2. making my puppet at school
3. reading a book about ponies at the library at school

Daily Diary – August 29 2010

Still sick as a dog here. Aching all over. Sore throat. Whine whine whine 🙂

Little boy work up at the crack of dawn. He was sad too so I just came downstairs with him and gave him some love. We all just relaxed and tried to wake up in our own way. I have to say, it’s a lot of work but so much fun to have two kids. I love watching them together. Especially when they show love.

And friendship. Cause that’s always the hope when you decide to have any siblings.

Here’s Nathaniel exploring David’s legos. While David colors. Look at those toes!

I spent most of the day lying in pain and reading my book while the kids played. In the afternoon, Jake took the kids to Walmart and Safeway and I decided it was time to get off my tush. So I finally did my snack bag sewing project. I’ve wanted to make this ever since I first saw tutorial. It’s so simple and lovely idea. Since David loves green, I picked a green, happy fabric. And it turned out wonderful. (btw, the sticky velcro did totally gum up my needle which later broke so be warned.)

I’d also wanted to make another bag like the one I just recently posted about. I wanted to make one that was deeper with a bigger pocket. I don’t have a lot of big chunks of fabric so there wasn’t a lot of option. I finally came up with a goldish fabric for the lining and a simple gray linen for the outside. And a little cord in gold finished the bag. I love it. I thought I wouldn’t and I broke TWO needles while I made it. But i do love it. Yey. I even put a small patch of velcro inside so I can close this one better.

When they got back, I put the groceries away, fed the kids and then we went out for David to ride his bike. Nathaniel just loves being outside, doesn’t care what we’re doing.

And his brother rode like a champ.

Which made him laugh. Laugh and laugh.

I love love that face. That happy, contented smile.

On the way home, Nathaniel got a chance to ride the bike too.

My three boys. I love how protective and loving David is of his brother and how much Nathaniel looks up to and loves his brother. And they have the most amazing Dad ever. I am a lucky lucky gal.

little boy went to sleep right after that. David and I did some more reading. We’re in chapter 65 now. It’s amazing. I then read some more Phantom Tollbooth. He’s really enjoying it. And so am I. Love that book. Then he went to bed and here I am on the couch again, watching the Emmy’s and in pain. I did finish my book today which makes me happy. I am halfway through Phantom Tollbooth and that makes me happy, too. And I stitched. Good. good day. Let’s hope pain is gone tomorrow.

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that I made my new bag, really excited about it.
2. I am grateful that the 1300-page book is finally finished. It was looooonnngggg.
3. I am grateful that Nathaniel’s hand does seem to be responding to the medicine, let’s hope doctor says it’s nothing!

Two Things David’s Grateful For:
I’ve been working with David so he can be more specific with his items.
1.daddy cause he helped me ride my bike
2. that we went shopping and bought things i like like bread and bagels
3. for my snack bag and your bag

Daily Diary – August 28 2010

I woke up all sick and congested today. Expected but it still sucked sucked. I can’t take anything for it cause of the nursing so I just whined and felt sorry for myself. Until I saw David’s face and realized that he had a shiner under his left eye. (it’s subtle but I swear it’s there.)

then i felt bad for him. his best friend at school punched him twice this last week. i wrote to the teacher about it and talked to david and told him to make another friend. i am really upset about it but trying not to talk about it so much since it puts his focus on the bad stuff and right now he still loves school a lot. let’s see what the teacher says. I then dragged myself to my hair appointment cause rescheduling is a nightmare. When I came back, David was playing wii and Nathaniel was not napping in his bed.

so I picked him up and gave him some food and lay on the couch, feeling some more sorry for myself. Then I realized that Nathaniel’s thumb was getting infected again so I put the cream, wrapped it and called his doctor.

It turns out the sample they had taken ten days ago shows staph in the bacteria so it’s not such great news. he’s going back to the doctor on monday to see if we can do more tests. and so then i felt bad for him, too. Especially since he was back to being sock-arm-boy.

He didn’t care. He just wanted to be like his brother. So when he saw the extra Wii remote, he was in heaven.

So went our day. I talked to my mom, I napped while Nathaniel took his afternoon nap and David played. I tried to read more of my 1300-page book which is really boring me. I read the Phantom Tollbooth out loud to David. We then did some more reading exercises. And it was time for them to go to bed. I still have to read 700 pages for this book to finish. Ugh.

Long day.But at least I didn’t have work and spent the day with my boys. Grateful.

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that my boys are so sweet and when I feel terribly ill like now, they are mostly easy to take care of and when they are not my husband is amazing.
2. I am grateful that I got my hair done, always makes me feel like a star.
3. I am grateful that I did all my must-get-done items and so I can just relax and be sick this weekend. This week is going to be rough at work so it’s best to rest as much as I can.

Two Things David’s Grateful For:
I’ve been working with David so he can be more specific with his items.
1. I’m grateful that I got to play A Boy and His Blob on the Wii.
2. I’m grateful that I played with Nathaniel on the big bed at bedtime (they wrestled and laughed together).
3. I’m grateful for Daddy cause he gave me peanuts while mommy was napping.
4. I’m grateful that Mommy read the Phantom Tollbooth to me.

Daily Diary – August 27 2010

And now that my week is over I am all sick. Runny nose, leaking eyes, headache, congestion, exhaustion. You name it, I have it. And I can’t take an anti-allergy medicine cause I am still nursing so I am not allowed. Woe is I.

The little one has a drippy nose too so I get a lot of this.

But thankfully, also, some of this.

And reaching for out of reach toys is his very favorite activity.

After we went to get David, I emptied his lunchbox and he drank water from his bottle which, of course, Nathaniel wanted to do, too. So after a lot of strong encouragement from me, he let him. Love seeing these photos.

I know all about looking up to an older sibling.

And another day is done and so is the first week of school. Save for several instances of recess punching, he seems to be loving every moment of it. I am trying to help him and watch out for him while not being insane. The instinct to preserve, protect and worry is very strong. Very. But I am working on it.

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that this weekend is a quiet one. I am too sick to even think about doing anything.
2. I am grateful that I fulfilled many of my upcoming commitments so I can relax a bit and catch up on everything else for a day or two.
3. I am grateful that we’ve survived the first week. I am hoping and estimating that it will get easier.

Two Things David’s Grateful For:
1. making friends on the school bus. (he made friends with some second graders)
2. going to the office at the school.
3. daddy.

Daily Diary – August 26 2010

I am a huge huge fan of seahorses. I took around fifty shots when we were in the aquarium. Love these things.

This week I’ve been bad about taking photos. It’s been so hectic, so insane that I captured what I thought I wouldn’t want to miss and the rest sort of fell on the floor. I asked David if I could snap some shots of him this morning. I got this one.

And this one. And that about sums up why i don’t take as many photos of him alone anymore.

Little boy woke up with a stuffed up (and leaky) nose. I had a brief moment between dropping off David at the bus stop and having to go to his school to volunteer, so I snapped a shot of the little one.

Then I went to David’s school. I volunteered in his art class and it was amazing. So much fun to watch them and him and be there. I am so glad I did it. And when the class was over, I went back home, worked, fed the little boy, and then went back to David’s school to meet with the teacher for Back to School night stuff since I am the Head Room Parent. And then came back home to my boys. While I was at the school, I noticed David was sitting with a different group of people at the end of school than he should be (he takes the bus but he was sitting with another set of kids, playing.) so when the lady who walks them down to the bus took off, she left him behind. Thankfully I was there so I told her my son was sitting at another table and I went to David and told him he had to pay attention and the bus was going to leave without him. He got sad and started sort of crying and I tried to talk to him but they had to go and so did I. So the lady who walks them over kindly held his hand the whole way there. And I had Jake call me when he got off the bus and all was ok but that was disturbing and sad to see how easy it is for him to be missed like that. I don’t blame anyone, it’s hard hard work to organize this chaos. So I told David that the end of schoolday is one of those times he has to pay super-extra attention to make sure he knows where to go.

It all worked out at the end, of course. When I came home, David was coloring and Nathaniel was cranky (as he’s been most of today.) But David told me to take a photo and he made Nathaniel laugh by making silly faces.

And he laughed and laughed and then came out from under the table.

And gave his brother a hug (even though it looks like a bite here).

And then looked at him up close.

And I just love these photos. I love seeing them together. So much. Makes me so deeply thankful.

And here they are being ordinary. David coloring, Nathaniel snacking and playing with legos. Perfectly ordinary and perfectly wonderful!

Once they went to bed, we went to Back to School night and I got to meet a lot of parents and talk and I love his teacher and I hear she’s awesome so I am very happy for him and I really hope he loves it and thrives and I also hope that I can make some good friends myself even. Let’s see.

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that I got to volunteer in David’s class today. It was wonderful to see him and the whole class.
2. I am grateful to be the Head Room Parent. I am a dive-in kinda gal so I dove with both arms. And I love it so far.
3. I am grateful that tomorrow is relatively quiet. This has been a long long week so I am happy that I get to experience a more “typical day” tomorrow.

Two Things David’s Grateful For:
1. riding the school bus.
2. coloring
3. daddy.

Daily Diary – August 25 2010

A dragon fish. Aren’t they exquisite?

Today was the first day David was scheduled to take the school bus. So we walked him to the bus station in the morning and chatted while we waited. David walked around and enjoyed the morning weather.

He was quite happy.

We started to get worried cause there were no other parents there but about two minutes after scheduled time, the bus showed up and David got on and he was super-excited. He said hi to the bus driver (who’s awesome by the way!) and he thanked us so much for letting him take the bus! The driver buckled him in and they were on their way!

Once he was gone, we walked back home and I packed up for the morning meeting I had at his school (I am his class’s head room parent.) I brought a bunch of food, some legos and some water for the little boy. The meeting was scheduled for two hours and ended up taking over three hours. Nathaniel was pure joy most of the time. Towards the end, he got grouchy (by this point we would normally have been two hours into his nap!) but I held him and he was pretty awesome to be honest.

Then we came home, he took his nap while I worked and by the time he woke up and ate food, it was time to pick up David. We all walked to the stop and waited for some time. Nathaniel spent this time making some of his many faces. Like this one.

Or this one.

And screamed.

And then gave us the “please pick this up for me” look. He gives this look a bunch of times a day.

Then he laughed.

And finally the awesome smile!

We show up ten minutes early for David’s bus. So we waited for some time since they were also ten minutes late today. I was getting anxious, I have to admit. But the bus came, David came off of it and he was super happy. He said he had another fantastic day! Tomorrow I go to volunteer in his class, then get to meet with his teacher and then go back for back to school night. And then things should quiet down a bit. Or so I hope. I am hoping, guessing, praying that the next ten days or so will find us settling into our routine, finding our new normal and my anxiety will dissipate day by day.

I hope so!

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that David loved the bus. Yey for the bus!
2. I am grateful that Nathaniel did so well through the meeting and I didn’t have to leave the room but once.
3. I am grateful that I get to volunteer in David’s class tomorrow!

Two Things David’s Grateful For:
1. riding the school bus.
2. my batman backpack.
3. daddy.
4. kindergarten.

Daily Diary – August 24 2010

And here we are. First day of school. Little boy went without any fuss. And even with a bunch of excitement.

I tried to grab some photos but he faked the smiles. He wanted to play in the playground.

He even made a new friend immediately. Within minutes they were playing, holding hands, and laughing together.

And then it was time for him to go in. He went in, picked his name and that was that for me. We went to another room where I signed up to volunteer for a collection of events and then came back home.

The little boy took a nap and played legos to his heart’s content.

And walked around and got into mischief as usual.

And then we all went up to get David who was happy to see us but said had the best first day of school ever! Tomorrow he gets on the bus for the first time, another source of anxiety for mommy. There have been too many lately. I just tell myself to get through this week and that things will get smoother. They will, right?

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that David loved his first day. So grateful that he feels happy and like he belongs.
2. I am grateful that Jake was here with us and helped me and was there every step along the way.
3. I am grateful that I have a flexible enough job that I was able to be there today and will be able to be involved and help out in his class. I am really thankful for that.

Two Things David’s Grateful For:
1. my first day of school.
2. getting my new markers.
3. daddy.

Daily Diary – August 23 2010

Well the day that I’ve been dreading is finally here. Summer is over. over. Everyone thought I was crazy for not enrolling David in a school or some class or camp or whatever. How will you get work done? He will go stir crazy. Blah blah. As it turned out, he was awesome. He played hours of legos and ran around in the backyard. He learned addition and subtraction. He learned to read. (I mean he really can read now!! it’s amazing.) He played with his brother. And he was awesome. Neither of us regret it one bit. One little bit.

We had a meet-and-greet in his class today so we got his school clothes out. Which included these light-up Spiderman shoes. Of course, Nathaniel immediately wanted to put them on. And then, of course, he immediately wanted to take them off. My boy, so predictable.

And then he sucked his thumb a bit. It’s much better but now I’m nervous about it getting sick again of course.

David lay down on the floor, pretending to be asleep so Nathaniel tried to “wake him up.”

And then gave up and went to sleep with him.

And then it was time to go to school. David’s teacher had this photo of a school outside the door with all the kids’ names on each apple. I asked David if I could take a photo and this is the smile I got.

While we waited for it to be time, he played in the playground. And Nathaniel wanted to go too, but we didn’t let him.

Then we went in and he explored many of the corners of his new classroom.

And here he is with his new teacher. She looks quite nice to me.

After we came home, the kids sat on the floor and did what they do often: played legos together. Look at my boys.

And tomorrow is the first day of school. I know I am more nervous than David. I know he will do great cause he always does. Let’s see how well I’ll do.

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that David’s new school and class appear to be wonderful. I really hope that he loves every minute of his school life there.
2. I am grateful that Jake’s taken some days of to do this with me. I am anxious and it really helps to have him be there with us.
3. I am grateful that I am a little back to my routine today. Tomorrow will bring a new routine but I am still grateful for having exercised, done some art, etc.

Two Things David’s Grateful For:
1. going to his new school.
2. playing some didj games.
3. daddy.

Daily Diary – August 22 2010

Happy Sunday. Today was quiet and just the way I love it. Little boys played with legos.

And other doodads.

And then Daddy tickled the little one while the big one attacked him. Love these boys.

I love these boys so deeply.

So so much.

The little boy loves going outside, and wearing Daddy’s flip flops.

And we love him. So so so much. I have no idea how I got so lucky with all my boys but I assure you I am counting my blessings all the time. I did two layouts today, which is more than usual for me. I also started an artsy project. And read some. This book is going slowly but I will finish it.

Tomorrow starts the big week. We have a meeting at David’s school in the middle of the day and Tuesday he goes to school. Kindergarten. I don’t know why I keep thinking about this but back when September 11 happened, I remember this one story about Cantor-Fitzgerald which was a company at the World Trade Center. Every single employee who was at work that morning died. The CEO was walking his daughter to school on her first day of kindergarten and so he was late to work that morning. And he survived. I don’t know why I keep remembering this story but I do. And on Tuesday all of us will be taking David to school. We love him so.

I hope everyone’s week goes smoothly and happily.

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful for our perfectly ordinary day, filled with laughter and joy.
2. I am grateful for the art I did today. Always happy when I get to do some art.
3. I am grateful for my life. for all the big things and the really tiny things. for everything that makes us who we are right now.

Three Things David’s Grateful For:
1. legos!
2. drawing in my connect the dots books.
3. daddy.