My boys.



Feeling a bit fragile today. Tired and worn out. Nathaniel has been unable to take naps anywhere but on me while feeding and that’s not really sustainable considering I will start working in four weeks. So I decided to work with him on sleeping in his crib. It’s a tough tough thing for me. All the leaning over and kissing and hugging and love means my back is breaking with pain, my head is splitting in half and I feel broken inside. I know this is the journey we must take but I wish I were on the other side of it already.



I’ve been working on my next Big Picture Scrapbooking class. It’s a workshop coming in December and I want to get all the materials ready by the end of the month so I am spending all my free moments on it. Here’s a sneak of my project:

Working on this project really inspired me to look at my life, set some goals and feel excited.



And today’s Nathaniel shots. He’s been chewing on his fingers so much. Yet no teeth at all so I wonder why he chews so much.











Hope your day is better than mine.

I love him.

We’re back from the beautiful Cayucos. I am in a funk. Not sure why. Too much time to think and not nearly enough time to do. Maybe that’s why….

More from Cayucos. Just photos today. The connection here is not so good. But we’re having a fantastic time. It’s a shame it has to end so soon. Lots of photos here…

Happy Monday.

This, from beautiful Cayucos.

While walking around we saw these three little birds, waiting for their mom and then the mom showed up to give them some food. So magnificently cute.



And today’s Nathaniel.







Happy Saturday.

This is how my house looks lately. My kids playing together. I love it. I can’t wait until Nathaniel’s older and they really play together.

And the feet, the wonderful feet.







I slept very little last night. David decided he was going to have bad dreams. So he was up 6 times and each time David went to sleep, the baby woke up. And when they were both finally asleep, I had insomnia. Ugh…

I love those little feet.

And this smiling face. This is as David sings and dances around so entertain him.



I must say that while Nathaniel baby is considerably easier than David was (partly cause I’ve done all this before), it’s still been a rough few months here. I haven’t slept a full night in six months (I wasn’t able to sleep towards the end of my pregnancy at all). Nathaniel doesn’t like being put down at all. He nurses almost the whole time while he sleeps. If I try to unlatch he wakes up and cries really hard. If I put him down to grab some food or even to pee, he is really miserable and within minutes, he’s sweating from anger.



I am certainly worrying less this time around and having a real maternity break has been wonderful but even with that, I find myself tired too often. And frustrated that I am unable to do what I want to do. My head is spinning with ideas that I have no time to execute. Even though I know that he will eventually sleep through the night and even take naps by himself, that time seems unfathomably far away. And I keep reading about other people’s kids sleeping and I feel like I am messing it all up all over again.



But then he smiles. He is so incredibly cute. I hug him hard and I am thankful for each and every moment.