Daily Diary – February 7 2011

So the good news is I did take today off. I woke up and decided it needed to be a personal day. And I spent most of the day doing not much. A little art journaling, some tiny journaling, some email replies, etc. The bad news is that it didn’t really have the desired effect. I don’t feel much better. (Though I do feel a little better.) But I did decide that it’s time to just snap out of it. If it won’t get better by itself, I will have to force my way through this annoying place.

I also completely forgot to take photos until the light was almost gone. So when I tried to snap a few before I gave Nathaniel his dinner, this is what I got.

David, of course, was a lot more accommodating. His very last picture as a 5 year old.

I tried a bunch more times with Nathaniel after giving him some blueberries. He’s looking to the side because Thomas was playing behind me and he’s looking around me to see it. Nice eh?

He wouldn’t stop eating long enough for me to take a photo.

One would think he never gets to eat. But alas, even when he looked right at me, it was while shoving some food in his mouth.

so I just gave up and let him eat in peace.

I’ve already done all of my night time stuff (drawing a portrait and writing some in my art journal) so tonight I think I might journal some more, pick a few books to read, watch some TV and go to bed really early. Tomorrow’s a big day for David.

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that I took the day off and didn’t chastise myself for not getting too much done.
2. I am grateful that we finished all of David’s class Valentine’s in one sitting. It was super quick and they turned out very cute.
3. I am grateful that I get to go to bed early tonight. A little extra sleep will do me good.

Three Things David’s Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that tomorrow’s my birthday {* his pick for the journal}
2. I am grateful that I get to play wii tomorrow.
3. I am grateful that i played a game on the computer tonight.

Daily Diary – February 6 2011

Today started calm and relaxed. I didn’t journal but I did do some work on my art journal and I printed all of January’s photos for scrappy pages. I haven’t made a layout in about ten days which is really long for me. But I have some commitments coming up so I wanted to have photos at hand. I then did my exercise and then the most important item on my todo list. So overall I was feeling good already. Then we took the family shots. (Look at Nathaniel enjoying his book.)

When Nathaniel woke up from his nap, we all got in the car to drive to Filoli Gardens but when we got there we found out that it was closed for a few more days. So we went to a nearby diner called Buck’s. I’d already changed my lens which is why Nathaniel looks like he was captured with a fisheye here.

Then we went to Elizabeth Gamble gardens in Palo Alto and Jake’s dad grabbed this of us. If Nathaniel didn’t look like he is about to pass out, it would be great.

I snapped a million flower photos and then took one of the little boy.

My inlaws with David.

And one with both the kids.

Then we came home and it was evening routine time. We were all wiped from the food and then walking in the sun. So the kids went to bed, Jake and his parents went out to dinner (and then airport) and I am lying on the couch, trying to decide if I will do more work. I think I will finish off a few more simple to do items and maybe journal a bit.

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that I finished the big todo list item on my list (my frog for the weekend).
2. I am grateful that tomorrow is completely obligation-free and I might even take it off work so i can really relax.
3. I am grateful that there’s Glee tonight!

Three Things David’s Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that I went to Meme’s hotel {* his pick for the journal}
2. I am grateful that I had some pancakes.
3. I am grateful that we went to the garden.

Daily Diary – February 5 2011

Most of the day is a blur today and to add to the crazy I didn’t accomplish anything on my personal list. I did go food shopping and we ordered David’s cake and of course I exercised and journaled too. But nothing else really. David got to play Wii early today because his grandparents were coming later in the day. And, of course, Nathaniel was sitting right next to him.

Then I set up the tripod to take some family shots.

It was super early so we had to use really high ISO and here’s a typical shot of everyone looking in a different direction.

This one is a bit better.

In the afternoon, David did some puzzles with his grandfather.

When we came back from the shopping trips, it was really late so I tried to snap a few more photos before I lost all the light. And Nathaniel smiled at me while I snapped.

David ran into the house and managed to bust his lip as he banged on the trash can (don’t ask….) so you can see that if you look closely (upper lip.)

We were supposed to go out tonight but I am completely wiped and the idea was so so overwhelming to me that I just decided we needed to stay at home. I needed to and I think Jake felt the same way. I am just going to relax and watch TV and make some book lists for myself and maybe work on my art journal a bit. I have to write something but I am not sure it’s possible to do it when i am this tired. Let’s see….

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that we did a lot of the chores for the weekend and I ordered all the stuff I needed for David’s birthday.
2. I am grateful that we didn’t go out tonight and Jake was (as always) wonderful about it.
3. I am grateful that if I don’t get anything done tonight or even tomorrow, it will not be a problem. So I can really just relax.

Three Things David’s Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that I got new Legos {* his pick for the journal}
2. I am grateful that I put legos together with Papi.
3. I am grateful that we ordered my birthday cake

Daily Diary – February 4 2011

Another rushed day. I seem to have too many of them lately. But that’s ok. Life goes on and life’s wonderful so I am not really complaining. I got very few photos today.

Here’s Nathaniel digging into the raisins while he plays and I work.

And here’s another one of the boy with the blue eyes.

I tried to get more shots of Nathaniel but by the time we came back from the school interview, all the light was gone so I snapped several, all of which were blurry.

So here we are. At the end of another day. The exercise this week has been hard so I am extra proud that I kept with it. I haven’t done a huge amount of creating but I did do several projects and I’ve journaled almost every single day. Stephanie’s class is over as of today so I am hoping I will just continue journaling anyway. It’s been incredible and I really really want to keep it up. Thankfully, Melody’s class is on a few more weeks so she will encourage me to keep journaling for now. And my class starts next week too. I’m really excited about that!

We’re off to another date night tonight. We’ll be driving to the city to meet with a friend of Jake’s from high school and his wife. I am excited for a good night with good conversation.

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that it’s the weekend. I plan to do a lot of creating this weekend. Just want to play play play.
2. I am grateful that Alisa’s class starts on Monday. I am hoping she’ll get me started on my sketching journey.
3. I am grateful that I don’t really have any plans this weekend and we get to have another date night tomorrow. Yey for both.

Three Things David’s Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that it was the 100th day of school {* his pick for the journal}
2. I am grateful that I played on papi’s computer.
3. I am grateful that Hassen gave me a silly ring (ice cream shaped)

Daily Diary – February 3 2011

I think I should go track the cycles I seem to have on my blog. I get the sense that I get depressed and tired and whiny every six weeks or so. I don’t know if it’s biological or just feeling worn out after living a go-go-go life for a while. Either way, I seem to be on the down spiral right now but I know from experience that the pendulum will swing the other way soon. I am trying to wait patiently while I still continue to live my life.

I got these photos of David today that I love.

Especially this one. My stunning, stunning, boy.

Nathaniel was watching TV.

He’s gotten really demanding lately and wants me to put on a specific thomas and then changes his mind and gets super cranky and I cannot deal with it since I am working so now he gets no TV.

Which of course means breakdowns. and weeping. Thankfully, my mother in law got him a Thomas book so they read that together.

And then he read it a bunch on his own.

And then he had several more breakdowns at which point I decided he was ready for bed and now he’s lying in his bed playing of course. Ugh. I have a long list of things to do tonight and I sent everyone out of the house. But my hunch is I will end up just lying on the couch, watching TV, drawing, and maybe doing some art. That’s about it.

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that I made it through my 2.7 miles today. It was even harder today. I truly didn’t think I’d make it. But deeply grateful that I did.
2. I am grateful it’s Friday tomorrow. I really really need some more downtime.
3. I am grateful that I finally started the big art journal I wanted to do a la Judy wise. It’s been fun so far and I will show pictures at the end of the week. I am just so happy to play with watercolor, stamps, and just have fun.

Three Things David’s Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that I get to be the star of the day for tomorrow which is 100th day {* his pick for the journal}
2. I am grateful that I played on papi’s computer.
3. I am grateful that i get to play legos in bed tonight

Daily Diary – February 2 2011

I woke up in a better mood today thankfully. Things are still a bit fragile but I feel like doing some art last night really helped a lot. I got up and did pages of journaling, I exercised, Nathaniel didn’t nap and then napped and then was cranky. I worked, I read to David. So I did most of what I do in a day. I feel a little frazzled and disorganized still but I am feeling less depressed and less fragile which is wonderful.

Little boy having fun while watching choo-choo.

A good smile from my big boy.

And one from my little boy.

That’s all I got today. I still have to feed dinner, do some more work, post two more posts, draw my portrait and get ready to go out to date night so I will say good night and let you know that I will respond to comments ASAP and I am not ignoring you and I am deeply grateful for all your kind comments and thank you for visiting me day after day. thank you thank you thank you.

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that I made it through my 2.7 miles today. It was really hard and I didn’t think I was going to make it but I did.
2. I am grateful for another date night.
3. I am grateful that I journaled and made some art. Each time I journal more and more issues come up and get resolved, it’s truly like magic lately.

Three Things David’s Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that it’s groundhog day {* his pick for the journal}
2. I am grateful that I played star wars with julian at school.
3. I am grateful that i started my dalmatian (named spot!)

Daily Diary – February 1 2011

I’ll start by telling you that I am still in a really grouchy mood. I can’t seem to snap out of it so I am just going to let myself off the hook and just let it get better when it needs to and in the meantime i will try to minimize the damage around me. Thankfully the boys are being amazing for the most part.

Excited when toys make noise.

David told me could he smile while he played please?

I explained that I needed a full on smile with the eyes.

And Nathaniel laughing while watching choo-choo.

Tonight’s plans are a bit in the air. I don’t want to do anything but have seventeen things to do. So let’s see which one I end up with. My inlaws just arrived so we have more options than usual for our evening.

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that I had a new lesson in four of my classes. Despite feeling overwhelmed, I love getting the new lessons and feeling inspired.
2. I am grateful that I got a lot of sleep in the last two nights. I needed the rest badly.
3. I am grateful that I was able to do my increased exercise today. More coming about this soon.

Three Things David’s Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that meme and papi are coming to visit {* his pick for the journal}
2. I am grateful that I read my book box at school.
3. I am grateful that mommy and I read our book

Daily Diary – January 31 2011

I woke up this morning and it didn’t take me long that I had somehow gotten up from the wrong side of the bed. I felt off. I think fragile is sort of the best word for it because I was weepy for a while and then tired and worn out and ended up the day grouchy. All day long, I literally did nothing. I finished my book, read to david, and exercised. I had the day off work so I could have accomplished a million things but I just didn’t feel up to doing anything at all.

At some point in the day, I just gave myself permission to waste this day away. My body and mind and soul needed the rest I guess. I am thinking it’s likely from having been away from home. When you meet me in person you can see that I talk nonstop. I mean a LOT and really fast. I am talk talk talk talk. I tend to come off really extroverted. But the fact is I am not. I much prefer quiet, introspective time. So when I am in a social situation nonstop like I was this weekend, I really need to wind down and go back to my comfort place which is always home. What I didn’t do today, which I should have, is journaling. I think writing would have helped but I didn’t even feel up for that. Maybe a few hours from now, I’d be up for it. I also hope I feel up to drawing my portrait which I also haven’t done yet. Let’s see.

The little one was very accommodating for most of the day and played quietly.

Here’s David, thinking of what to write in his gratitude journal.

And then writing it.

And then here’s Nathaniel trying to figure out which toy to play with while Choo-choo is in the background.

And then he asks for some grapes while he’s playing and he immediately spills juices of it all over everywhere so I tell him he can’t have anymore. And this is what I get:

Ah the joys of being a mom. And the plans for tonight are plenty but realistically I am guessing maybe one more thing will get done and that’s it before I head to bed. I will try to do my monthly review since January is now finished. By the way, newsletter goes out very early tomorrow so if you want the exclusive digital downloads, make sure to subscribe on the right top corner of the blog.

Happy Monday!

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that I had the day off, I really really needed it.
2. I am grateful that I didn’t have anything that was super time-sensitive so I was able to do nothing without too much worry about letting someone down.
3. I am grateful that new lessons in my classes go up tomorrow. Can’t wait.

Three Things David’s Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that I got to show the class my 100th day collection {* his pick for the journal}
2. I am grateful that I finished my snowman album at school.
3. I am grateful that mommy and nathaniel came to school today (I volunteered in his class this morning)

Daily Diary – January 30 2011

So after the crazy day yesterday, I woke up again before my set wakeup call. Quietly went down to the gym (remembered my key this time!) and did my 2.6 miles. I was quite proud of myself to be honest. I then got dressed, packed, and put some makeup on. I snapped this right as I was leaving and there was absolutely no light hence the horrible quality..

While my boys where giving Daddy a hard time.

And being all sweet.

Laughing.

And being silly. As David loves to be!!

After a quick breakfast stop, we headed into the show again. We were there a little early, so I coveted the punches once more and then started working again. I worked all the way until about noon and then left with Michelle who owns A Million Memories and Jennifer and Tonya who design for her. Grabbed a quickie lunch and went in search of my shuttle. It was pouring rain by this point so getting on the shuttle was quite an adventure but I made it safe and sound and sat at the airport, read my book, got on the plane, chatted with the two lawyers who sat next to me, and made it home safely. I hugged and kissed my kids and hubby all the way home and made them dinner, cleaned up, put them to bed, and here I am. Safely home.

I must admit that while I liked going there, seeing friends, and seeing some of the products, I worked hard and really really missed being home. There’s nothing I love as much as being at home. Nothing. So I am deeply thankful to be home. And looking forward to going back to my routine. Sad, I know, but I love my routine. All of it. Even the hard parts.

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that I made it home safely and I am really grateful to be home.
2. I am grateful that I got to see Michelle and Tonya and Jennifer even if for just a little while.
3. I am grateful for all the nice comments from everyone about my layouts and just filled with gratitude over the kindness.

Three Things David’s Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that mommy’s home {* his pick for the journal}
2. I am grateful that I played some games on the phone.
3. I am grateful that I got some new games for the phone

Daily Diary – January 29 2011

I am so sorry I didn’t get to write last night. By the time I came home from dinner it was 10pm and I was dead tired from being on my feet all day and just needed to go right to sleep. I would say it’s surprising that I took no photos during this weekend, but I have never been able to take photos during CHA so I am not surprised at all. The only photos I took were of the punches. I ran to the EK Success booth and took photos of every punch. Let me know if you want to see them and I will post. I have yet to look at them myself.

Before I tell you all about my day, I’ll start with the photos Jake took for me of the boys. I was so lucky in that he took photos with my nice camera and with his phone because he was able to upload the phone ones right away and I got to see this little boy staring at me with this face in the middle of the show.

And this handsome boy, too.

I missed my boys quite a bit so it was really really nice to have the photos.

I even walked around the Maya Road booth just to see their photos on my layouts cause I missed them so much.

I love them so much and am so grateful Jake took some photos for me.

Saturday was my only full day at CHA. I didn’t get to the hotel until 9pm or so and delivering my layouts, eating some food, chatting, etc, meant I wasn’t sleeping before midnight. Since I was going to get up at 6am for exercise, I was all worried. Obviously a little too worried because I slept fitfully all night. And woke up before the scheduled wake up call. I’d put all my stuff aside so as to not wake up my roommate, Katie, and went down to the gym, which was almost totally full. As I walked in, I realized I forgot my room key. Which meant I’d have to wake Katie up when I got back so instead I went down the to front desk and explained to them that though the room was not in my name, it really was my room. Thankfully, they sent security up with me and had me show proof of an object in the room with my name. Which meant I didn’t have to wake up Katie!!

Shower, getting dressed, etc, and we were off to the convention center. I’d never worked a booth before so I begged for some training and MR has a lot of products so I got some quickie training and that was it. Right before the show began, there were bagpipes and then we were on. Which meant that for the next eight hours with possibly an hour break, I talked and walked around to show clients product. I was on my feet for most of it which is amazing for me since I am generally very sedentary.

I got the luxury of having lunch with Dina Wakley and KL Yeary and Allison from Hambly (who was 7.5 months pregnant!) Then I went back to work. I got to talk to Stacy and Kayce of Big Picture and I did run to Little Yellow Bicycle, Pink Paislee, and The Girls’ Paperie briefly to see my layouts but that was it. The show ended at 6pm and I rushed back to the hotel with Katie so I could quickly change and be ready for Tracy to pick me up for the Big Picture dinner. Which was wonderful. But I felt pain literally on every single muscle in my body. And when I came back to the hotel at 10pm, I crashed. I was very worried I might not be able to do the 6am workout the next morning. But I told myself I was going to, anyway.

That was it for day 1. Just to give you a sense, ordinarily, I take about 8000 steps a day and on saturday I took 17,000 steps. So it was quite an active day for me.

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that I got to spend a lot of time chatting with Kayce and I got to meet Tracey.
2. I am grateful that I got to experience working on the booth, it was hard work but also a lot of fun.
3. I am grateful that I got to meet Rebecca and Margie even if for a small second. It’s nice to put faces to the people for whom I work. I also got to meet Emily and Lori. It’s nice to meet people whom you email frequently.

Three Things David’s Grateful For:
1. Playing Wii ALL DAY
2. Play games on the iPhone
3. Grocery shopping with Daddy

Daily Diary – January 28 2011

I know we’re not at the end of the day but am about to rush out the door to go to the airport and I wanted to make sure to post today’s entry. I had the day off work so most of what I did was to sit around and do errands and chores I’ve been putting off like folding several loads of laundry. I also packed and exercised and drew my portrait. I journaled, too!

Nathaniel kept me company while he wasn’t napping. He played right along me and even gave me some hugs.

I will miss the little boy so much!

Here he is after his nap, telling me to put choo choo on. (And now he’s got blah-blah too which is blue’s clues.)

And I tried to snap one of the big boy but he was thinking about what games to put on his phone and wouldn’t really look my way.

And the second I told him we were done, he went back to looking for games.

And now I leave for the airport. I hope that everything goes smoothly, I arrive safely, the shuttle takes me there without problem and my jaw pain goes down a bit because I am not sure how much Advil I can take in a weekend. Hopefully, I’ll be updating from Los Angeles, but otherwise see you in two days. Have a wonderful weekend!!

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that I can leave my kids and go on this trip. It’s all to the credit of my husband who is amazing and kind and a wonderful daddy.
2. I am grateful that I got much of my tasks for today done. I feel tired so I am hoping I might nap on the plane.
3. I am grateful for someone letting me help her today. I plan to write a lot more about helping in general at some point but i know it takes courage and heart to accept help as well as give it and i know it rewards both parties so much so I am deeply grateful for this person’s trust in me .

Three Things David’s Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that I made a necklace at school {* his pick for the journal}
2. I am grateful that mommy downloaded three games for me.
3. I am grateful that it’s the weekend

Daily Diary – January 27 2011

Happy Thursday everyone! I had a quiet day and one with few photos so I will keep this short. Here’s the little boy playing. And me screaming loudly to get his attention.

And finally he looks.

And here’s David playing (and me screaming loudly to get his attention.)

And finally a “let’s just get this over with” smile

And there we go. Tonight is more journaling, some art, some preparing for tomorrow. Tomorrow I have the day off. I will be playing with my kids, packing, folding laundry and packing up my layouts and then in the evening I am of to Los Angeles, if all goes well. I have a long todo list but all small stuff so I have faith most will get done and that whatever doesn’t get done will not be essential.

Let’s hope i am right.

Three Things I’m Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that I spent time trying some clothes on today to ensure I have stuff to wear since I would have stressed if I left that to tomorrow (last minute).
2. I am grateful for some quiet time tonight. I hope to spend it organizing for the trip so that tomorrow can go smoothly and I can spend most of my free time just playing with the boys.
3. I am grateful for faith today. For people’s faith in other people and for taking a leap. I took one today and I am hoping the other person will take it with me. I am grateful no matter what.

Three Things David’s Grateful For:
1. I am grateful that Ms. Merk has extra snacks in the class (he ate an apple extra today) {* his pick for the journal}
2. I am grateful that I played some games on the phone.
3. I am grateful that I played batman with julian today