I am a big fan of feeling my feelings. I like to name my fears and worries out loud. I know they are there whether I acknowledge them or not and whether I say them or not. I believe that naming them, saying them out loud and putting them outside of me is key to reducing their power.
It’s an important way for me to connect to myself and not to numb.
It’s also a step toward connection with others who might feel similarly so I can feel less alone.
So I am not a fan of dismissing or diminishing the feelings when they are spoken out loud. I try hard never to tell my friends or boys that what they are feeling is not a big deal and that there are people much worse off in the world. Or that if they voice their fears, that voice might bring them forth so don’t say it. I disagree with both of these philosophies.
Our feelings are real whether we acknowledge or not. Our lives and worries and anxiety and blessings are not part of a comparison game. We are allowed to worry and be sad no matter what. And naming our fears does not make the universe send them our way. For myself, I try not to encourage wallowing because I don’t think it helps me. But acknowledging and being acknowledged absolutely does.
How can I work through my feelings if I am not even allowed to say them out loud?
My favorite moments about life are always in the little moments. Snuggling up on the couch. Laughing in the car. Watching my kids play. Joking around in the kitchen.
It’s almost Halloween which means I can put my Christmas tree up soon. I’m not a fan of Fall but Christmas season is my favorite.
It’s performance evaluation season at work so I have been thinking a bunch about how to give and receive feedback. And how other people’s feedback might be valid and still it doesn’t mean I have to do anything about it. I can receive it, say thanl you and then decide if I’d like to incorporate it.
I get to decide which feedback matters to me and what I want to do about it.
Like other things in life,.I can choose if this happens to me or if I decide to be an active participant in the conversation. Having choice and knowing it’s up to me completely changes how I show up.
I am working hard not to hold on to what’s not mine to carry. Being intentional with how to help without fixing and how to be present and sit with things without rushing to solve.
All of which is so hard for me and yet so liberating when I can do it.
Lately I find that I am running out of time often. Time is passing quickly and I am having trouble getting all the things I want to do, done. When I feel this way, I am usually cranky so I am reminding myself that time is the most precious asset I have and it’s the only one that cannot be replenished, thus it helps me to be intentional about how I use mine.
I don’t know what the right answer is for me right now and I am having a hard time choosing so instead I decided to make a list of things I never regret spending time on:
– playing games with my kids – exercising – going climbing with my husband – doing art – hanging out with a good friend – helping my kid’s with school – talking with either kids or Jake about life or us or something new we learned – reading a really good book – watching a really good movie – sitting outside
That’s some of my list. So the plan is that when in doubt I do one of these.