I had some tough conversations to have today and it made me realize that it’s helpful to work at it on my own first and see what outcome I really wanted.
If I am not clear.on what I want going in, it’s really hard to ensure that I know what to say. At the same time, if I am really attached to the outcome I want, then I might not listen well.
So I need to walk that narrow line where I am clear in my why and what and also I am not attached to the outcome.
Little boy was Kaz Brekker from Six if Crows for Halloween. He 3-d printed a crow’s head to attach to his cane and we painted the whole thing at home.
I am not a fan of Halloween and yet I really enjoy watching others get into it. I love that little boy is always in the spirit to celebrate and have fun. I love that both my boys went to be with friends tonight.
And now that it’s the end of Halloween, bring on Christmas!
Saturdays are for lying on the couch. I miss summer already and I am also excited about Christmas season. I am grateful for the quiet of these cold days. Snuggling up with a good book, music I love and a warm drink.
I’ve been told not to take things personally my whole life. I’m slowly starting to understand how to do that and what might be possible for me as a result.
A friend of mine at work told me a few weeks ago that the top way people feel included at work is by feeling recognized. Which I guess is a way people feel seen and appreciated maybe?
So I’ve been thinking about how I prefer to be recognized and how I can communicate clearly about that. And what makes me feel seen.
And I’ve also been thinking about how I can do that for others. How I can listen better for what makes them feel seen and appreciated.
300 days into this year. This year for which I had so many hopes. This year which we spent getting tested and vaccinated and tested more. A year spent in solitary.
Alas, parts of this year turned out so much better than I hoped and others so much worse. Isn’t that life for you?
I discovered a new-to-me musician today and have been listening to his work nonstop and it has given me endless joy.
So grateful for artists who share their soul with us so we might have more color and joy in our lives.
Feeling calm and rested from a few days off. Lately I’m finding that I love moving slowly more and more. I notice my rushed thoughts or anxiety around no doing enough and I remind myself that I have all the time I need.
I say it out loud because I am also noticing that I need to hear myself say it.
As part of my one little word class, I’ve been doing affirmations for a few weeks and this is one of the ones that really resonates each time.
We had parent-teacher conferences today and it was really wonderful to hear all the teachers had to say about the big boy.
But what was even more magical to see was how excited all of the teachers were to talk about the subject they teach and how excited they were to see how genuinely curious big boy is. The teachers all love teaching these kids and seeing them learn and think and grow.
When I moved to America one of my big dreams was for my kids to have an excellent education. To have their curiosity be met with excitement and encouragement.
It’s been raining cats and dogs all day today. I haven’t left the couch except to exercise.
Reading two lovely books simultaneously. Every time my mind interferes to remind me of something I have to get done, I acknowledge it, thank it and let it go.
It’s amazing how much can change when you decide to change your perspective. I made a big shift a few weeks ago and it’s changed my whole life. If someone had told me that I could do this I would have laughed at their face.
