I was thinking this morning about how beginnings matter so much. I woke up this morning and exercised for a long while and then journaled and there was a deep feeling of satisfaction that carried through the day.
And regardless of what else today or even this week brings, I did some work today to get stronger and I am grateful for that.
There are no words for how happy the ranunculus make me.
It’s always hard to wind down on Sunday nights. I find it takes me hours to get to a place where I feel excited to do things on Sunday so then I am on a roll and don’t want to stop when it gets late.
Today I spent a lot of time journaling and a lot of time scrapbooking. It was lovely to get to play with paper and tell stories and think about life.
I am grateful for a good weekend and still anxious about starting this coming week as I am most Sunday nights.
So instead of reading, I will do ten minutes of restorative yoga so I can quiet my mind.
Yes to slowing down. Yes to being present with it. Yes to yoga.
The Best Part of this Week: was going climbing in the city.
I celebrate: small victories this week
I am grateful for: people who are going out of their way to help me and look out for me.
This week, I exercised: I climbed 3 times a week, rode seven times, did 10 mins of core and 10 mins of arms 5 days a week. And did 30 mins of yoga and 40 mins of stretching and took a long walk.
This week, I said yes to: going to Djerassi.
I said no to: working on Friday.
I honored my values (love, learn, peace, service, gratitude): things are still touch and go here but I am working on leaning into love and peace way over anything else.
Top Goals Review: did not get that much done this week :/
Work: did not write up the 3 for L and 3 for D. did finish coaching assessment. did prep for reviews.
Personal: did not really get back to drawing but did journaling.
Family: did not take walks with J. did one thing with N and did not do one thing with D. did not book vacation for April.
My mood this week was: anxious
I am proud of: my climbing.
I release: still in my head too much.
Here’s what I learned this week: that i am struggling but i will be okay.
Today my husband took us to this little know gem of a place and we got to walk around and enjoy the fresh air and see art that is built on nature and into nature. It was quite magical. Even though it was a 45-minute drive from home it felt light-years away from any city.
It was a good reminder that I don’t have to travel far to be in a completely different environment. And that I don’t have to travel far to be in a completely different mindset either.
I didn’t want to go today. In fact I didn’t want to do anything. It took a lot of energy to get out of bed this morning let alone to leave the house. But, as always, I am sitting here and feeling grateful that I went.
And maybe one day I can be better about yielding to whim too.
Yes to nature, yes to saying yes. Yes to doing it anyway.
I am finding that I randomly stress about upcoming things that are not currently under my control like whether I will be able to find a slot to get vaccinated or things that I need to do but can’t get motivated to get done. Like finding someone to paint our house or renewing my license.
So instead I will list some things I am looking forward to:
– Climbing competition season is starting soon and I really love watching bouldering competitions so I am really looking forward to that in two weeks
– The kids have spring break in a week. I am trying to decide if we go.on vacation but plan to take time off either way. Looking forward to that.
– It’s been 70-80 here all week, really looking forward to spending more time outside in the fresh air.
That’s my current list. It’s making me feel better about what is and helping me focus on the now.
Yes to embracing what is. Yes to sunshine and time together.
I have not been leaving the house enough this week and thus not enjoying enough of the sunshine that California is lucky to have this week.
Tomorrow I will make a point to go outside.
I still can’t really think of anything pithy to say. The days have been really tiring here and by the time it’s 7pm, I feel completely spent.
Looking forward to saying goodbye to March which is historically one of my least favorite months. And looking forward to April which promises to bring in a lot of change and celebration and maybe just maybe if we’re lucky, some vaccination.
I’m really hoping April proves to be an excellent month. Saying yes to April and what it might bring. Yes to what is.
