How I got Stronger this week: I did Body Pump all week. Even though twice this week, I didn’t feel like doing it at all and I skipped it in the morning only to come back home from a long day of work and do it anyway. It’s been a long month and I will admit I dreaded it many mornings but I still love Body Pump more than most exercise. As I type this I haven’t picked an April exercise yet but I am thinking of Tabata or Pilates or Core. I will be traveling a lot in May so I am trying to find something in April that will be challenging since May might be a bit of a mess. David and I finally finished his application which was a huge deal this week. I am doing better with food, too, I’ve started (or gone back to) eating my salads for lunch and I think that definitely helps, now I have to work on dinner and snacking (or not snacking.)
Top Goals Review: started organizing summits, so many summits. haven’t distilled learnings yet. kept body pumping, bought tix for boston, bought tix for europe, closed and submitted essays and finish out the app, and trying so hard to figure out the food.
I celebrate: I celebrate submitting the app.
I am grateful for: my husband, my kids, my parents, my sister, my nephews, my friends, my job, my life. feeling extremely grateful lately.
Karen’s Points: doing the body pump, doing the skin, too. doing nothing else but i’ve been thinking about the points a lot lately and how much it did help me and maybe i should just go ahead and do it for April, too. I can even alter my list.
A Change I embraced: My weekend plans changed a bunch and I’m working on dealing with it.
I let go of: work at nights this week. i came home tired and wanted to spend my time with the kids.
Core Desired Feelings Check-in:
- Fresh: i’ve really been enjoying my new car, so grateful for it, learning how to use it well.
- Magical: this week’s magical moment was having a wonderful chat with my husband.
- Lighter: Lighter now that i’ve booked the plane tickets for our vacations.
- True: feeling better finally, not 100% but better. The weather helps a lot.
Where I chose Joy: i chose joy by having lunch with my previous skip level manager and a few colleagues.
I showed up for: david this week and his application.
A Mistake I made this week: small mistakes at work, but nothing major this week.
What I tolerated this week: i am starting to get a bit anxious about how tough May and June will be with several events back to back in different continents and I have been tolerating the pressure that feels like it’s building up.
My mood this week was: present. i’ve been connected and moving and making progress.
I forgive myself for: dropping the ball on many things, as i pick up some, i drop some.
What I love right now: that the sun is out again. i am beyond happy.
Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.
How I got Stronger this week: Still doing Body Pump though I skipped Monday and I will say I’ve been doing more 15 minutes lately vs the 20. I’ve been tired and feel like I need a break a bit but I am unwilling to take a full break, so this is the compromise I’ve come to. It was a good week at work, too. Especially on Thursday, I worked from home and got a ton of work done. I spent time doing Physics with David and Math with Nathaniel. The one area I feel I am still not as strong as I’d like to be is the food. I’ve definitely been making choices that are not aligned with who I want to be and what’s in my best interest so I need to do a better job there but I am not sure how to help myself reset. Maybe this can be a major focus this next week?
Top Goals Review: finished the results doc and several others and the roadmap, yay! body pumped and thought about food but did nothing. spent time with david and almost done with his essay. didn’t make a new plan for N but we’re still doing math.
I celebrate: I celebrate some kind words at work this week.
I am grateful for: my kids, i am so lucky to have my kids.
Karen’s Points: doing the body pump. doing nothing else.
A Change I embraced: david was supposed to go to NYC this week for MUN conference but a bug storm canceled everything. So they couldn’t go and we all had to roll with it.
I let go of: my email this week, i lost track and wasn’t able to catch up.
Core Desired Feelings Check-in:
- Fresh: reading The Little Prince again and it’s all fresh and newly wonderful to me.
- Magical: this week’s magical moment was getting to listen to brene brown live.
- Lighter: Lighter at work now that i got a chunk of work done.
- True: still feeling a little off but trying to be kind to myself about it.
Where I chose Joy: i chose joy by going to my friend Evelyn’s bachelorette dinner. It was wonderful to see old friends.
I showed up for: david this week when he has a tough time with the change of plans.
A Mistake I made this week: nothing that stands out too much from this week.
What I tolerated this week: the low level of anxiety and two headaches. I haven’t had a headache in such a long time that it was extra unpleasant
My mood this week was: i’ve been feeling a bit disconnected still but working on it.
I forgive myself for: not showing up for Nathaniel’s school event, i felt really sad but he said he didn’t mind. i was working :(.
What I love right now: i love that the rain is almost gone (i hope!!)
Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.
How I got Stronger this week: Still doing Body Pump daily. This week was extra tough with the time change because my 6am workout became a 5am workout. It took me until Thursday to get used to the time change. I made a lot of effort at work to spend more time during the day working so that I didn’t carry over work to the weekend. I still have work but at least it’s not email. I spent a lot of excess energy on buying a new car and my taxes this week which was showing up to the bits of my life. I spent a lot of time with Nathaniel and math and David and physics this week so I feel happy about that, too.
Top Goals Review: had more 1-1s, planning a small amount but likely not enough, body pumping, did olw march, but i made no plans for food at all, that needs attention, tried to spend more time with boys.
I celebrate: I celebrate hopefully getting a new car this week.
I am grateful for: finally making some summer plans. i feel like maybe things are getting a bit clearer.
Karen’s Points: doing the body pump. doing nothing else.
A Change I embraced: i’ve been feeling off for the last few weeks. More anxious and more down than usual. I’ve been trying to embrace it and remember that it’s likely temporary. It will not be my new norm.
I let go of: having all the answers. things are going to take a while.
Core Desired Feelings Check-in:
- Fresh: does a new car count?
- Magical: this week’s magical moment was doing math with nathaniel and physics with david. i love watching my boys in action.
- Lighter: am changing our vacation plans a bit and it’s making me feel much lighter.
- True: honoring my needs by trying to not attend evening meetings as much as possible.
Where I chose Joy: i chose joy by buying a lot of flowers. they never fail to make me happy.
I showed up for: david and nathaniel with work this week.
A Mistake I made this week: i’ve been meeting a lot of new people and making a lot of new impressions, some go more smoothly than others.
What I tolerated this week: the low level of anxiety still. also had a lot of trouble picking books this week for some reason.
My mood this week was: i’ve been feeling a bit disconnected and out of it. Trying to make sure I acknowledge it without making a big deal of it.
I forgive myself for: how i’ve been feeling. it will get better.
What I love right now: i love the quiet saturday mornings when i sit and work as my kids climb.
Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.
How I got Stronger this week: As part of my March plan, I did Body Pump express every morning. I also took some chances at work this week. Nothing too scary but still practiced speaking my mind a bit. And so far, so good. I rested by watching Jessica Jones, does that count? I supported people I care about. I showed up. I tried and tried and tried.
Top Goals Review: had more 1-1s, trying to synthesize, body pumped daily, made no meal plan, did no do olw march, david and i are not in a rhythm but we are doing physics as often as we can and we are in a rhythm with nathaniel and math so i’m grateful for that.
I celebrate: I celebrate this week being over. my husband.
I am grateful for: the weekend. i need some rest and catch up time this week. i am grateful for it.
Karen’s Points: doing the body pump. doing nothing else.
A Change I embraced: i embraced the ups and downs of my new life, new work, and my car likely being done.
I let go of: i took a self-care day this week, I’m proud of it.
Core Desired Feelings Check-in:
- Fresh: it looks like car research is in my present
- Magical: this week’s magical moment was watching david at the science fair.
- Lighter: working hard to let go and move on.
- True: being true to me at work, speaking my mind.
Where I chose Joy: i chose joy on Thursday when I decided to take a little time off.
I showed up for: david and his science fair.
A Mistake I made this week: i’ve been anxious and worried all week. so that’s likely my biggest lesson to learn this week. how to move past that.
What I tolerated this week: the low level of anxiety all week.
My mood this week was: subdued. angry. proud.
I forgive myself for: how much i didn’t get done this week, i will catch up.
What I love right now: I love working on growing. trying. stretching.
Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.
How I got Stronger this week: I am almost done with my 30day yoga adventure in February and since March started, I’ve already started my March goal which is 31 days of Body Pump Express. I have been doing it at home every morning. And since I’d started February 2 days late and it only had 28 days, I’ve had 4 days of overlap of doing both. Which has been hard just schedule wise. Mentally this was a challenging week as I am trying to learn so much about how to succeed in my new job. also emotionally it was rough because I was in a car accident. And scheduling wise it was also tough because Jake was out of town 6 of the 7 days. But I pulled through. I’m making forward movement on all counts. I am showing up and I am trying.
Top Goals Review: had more 1-1s, making progress on the roadmap and the reviews, learning, made march plans and spending a lot of time with the kids.
I celebrate: I celebrate no one getting hurt.
I am grateful for: my husband. i know i say this a lot. but i am so grateful for how much he helped me on Thursday. How he was there for me again and again and said exactly what I needed to hear. He’s magic.
Karen’s Points: For March, it’s body pump all the way. the food is still yoyo but i will see ifi can make a plan for that this weekend, too.
A Change I embraced: i embraced jake being gone a lot this week.
I let go of: i am working on letting go of all the shame, guilt, sadness, frustration i feel around the accident.
Core Desired Feelings Check-in:
- Fresh: hmmm maybe body pump daily?
- Magical: this week’s magical moment is jake.
- Lighter: i am trying to be graceful again with this week’s unexpected news.
- True: allowing myself to feel my feelings.
Where I chose Joy:i chose joy on tuesday within the chaos of driving to kids’ bus, to work, to the school, to food, back to school, and home and then wake up and drive back to school and back to work. a lot of driving this week.
I showed up for: david this week where i advocated for one of his upcoming trips.
A Mistake I made this week: the accident and all of what came after felt worse than a mistake. it felt awful.
What I tolerated this week: so much driving. so much rain. so much sadness.
My mood this week was: sad.
I forgive myself for: how i feel about the accident.
What I love right now: I love that my kids are thriving. i am so grateful.
Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.
How I got Stronger this week: I worked hard on getting stronger this week, on all counts. I went rock climbing with my boys on Monday which was hard but also satisfying as I was able to get to the top of the easiest climb on my first morning. Tuesday and Wednesday was a lot of meetings, juggling new and old job. I also went to Body Pump on Tuesday morning so my muscles were very very sore by Wednesday. On Thursday, I took David to his doctor checkup and then took some meetings before we got on the road at 11am where I took more meetings and did more work while Jake drove. After all my meetings were over, I drove for a bit but then the roads got very icy and I decided it wasn’t safe for me to drive so Jake drove us all the way to Reno. On Friday, I skied all day with Jake and then with Jake and David. And it was so cold that I couldn’t feel my fingers or toes. So, finally, on Saturday, I decided to rest. I’ve still done the Yoga every single day regardless of where I am or how tired I am. This week was both intellectually and physically taxing. But I made it and I am hopefully stronger for it.
Top Goals Review: had more 1-1s, making progress on the roadmap and the reviews, rested a bit but was also physically active this week so not sure if it counts, and we went on vacation! wee!
I celebrate: I celebrate our little time off this week and also getting started in my job. I am making progress, however small.
I am grateful for: all the people in my life who forgive me despite my poor behavior. I go to bed every night vowing to do better the next day but then I wake up and I inevitably do something I am not very proud of. Again and again. And the people in my life give me more chances to get it right. I am so grateful for their kindness. And I will keep trying to get it right.
Karen’s Points: Still haven’t taken the time to revamp things. My eating this week has been so-so. While it’s not super poor, it’s definitely nothing to be proud of. My plan for March is to bring some of the discipline back into the eating. I also plan to go back to the cardio and do body pump more regularly. Let’s see how much progress I can make.
A Change I embraced: the rock climbing was new and scary.
I let go of: skiing on the second day when I just felt bone tired and really, really cold. I needed a break and I took it. i also let the kids and Jake ski alone which for most people is nothing but for me it was a big letting go.
Core Desired Feelings Check-in:
- Fresh: rock climbing.
- Magical: this week’s magical moment snuggling in the hotel with my hubby and kiddos
- Lighter: i am trying to get through this new job transition with a lot more grace than I would usually grant myself, trying to keep things lighter and not be overly anxious.
- True: working hard to stay true to what matters most to me and balance that with what matters to the people who matter most to me.
Where I chose Joy: i chose to share climbing with my family. I chose joy when i went skiing and then when i decided not to ski
I showed up for: nathaniel, where i helped him stay focused on his math. he’s been making steady progress and is not on 6th grade math.
A Mistake I made this week: i behaved poorly last night when i was really tired and felt under-appreciated and frustrated and hurt. none of those are good excuses for my poor behavior. i will do better next time.
What I tolerated this week: being super sore all week and the extreme cold.
My mood this week was: exhausted.
I forgive myself for: not skiing on the second day. I felt bad about leaving the boys alone but I was totally spent.
What I love right now: I love that spring is right around the corner.
Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.
How I got Stronger this week: This was a long and crazy week. My new position was officially announced on Monday and I started transitioning. Actually I am still doing a big portion of my previous job so there wasn’t a huge amount of transition yet, as I just started taking more on. This new role will be different, challenging and hopefully impactful. I have a lot to learn and a lot of new relationships to foster. I am optimistic and excited and of course quite a bit nervous, too. I spent a lot of this week focusing on the new job, being present, trying to hit the ground running, etc. I also tried to balance this with being there for all my boys. Jake helped me a lot especially on the former part of the week so I tried to kick it up a notch in the latter part of the week and be there for all three of them. I’ve also exercised everyday even though I’ve been feeling sick. I’m still going forward with the daily yoga.
Top Goals Review: had several 1-1s already, working on hitting the ground running, kept going with yoga but didn’t add weights as i haven’t been back to the gym and it looks like most of february will be this way, and i will say that i am still completely dropping the ball on nathaniel 🙁
I celebrate: my new job!!
I am grateful for: the support system I have especially at home. my new job will require a lot of help and patience especially up front and I am really grateful for the patience and kindness my three boys (especially Jake!) are extending to me.
Karen’s Points: I will have to revamp these for post Jan. I’ve not being doing too poorly but I’ve also not been actively keeping track so I don’t want to be patting myself in the back without having an actual record.
A Change I embraced: uhm, my new job.
I let go of: being able to jump in and immediately be useful. I will have to spend some time listening and learning. and while that’s hard for me, I will have to deal.
Core Desired Feelings Check-in:
- Fresh: new job. new people. new ways of working.
- Magical: this week’s magical moment is my new job. it’s all pretty surreal still.
- Lighter: i feel lighter now that the news is public.
- True: despite the changes in my routine, i’ve stayed true to my values and made sure to focus a lot of time on my boys this week.
Where I chose Joy: i connected with my first childhood love and my best friend briefly this week and it was a big moment of joy just getting to chat with him.
I showed up for: my friend this week and made room to spend time with her
A Mistake I made this week: I said something hurtful to David yesterday that was passive aggressive and I am really happy that he called me out on it. I don’t believe in sarcasm and being mean through that and i felt embarrassed that I did it. I will do better.
What I tolerated this week: being sick, jetlag, and navigating a lot of unknown.
My mood this week was: excited, anxious and grateful.
I forgive myself for: not getting it all at once. I can do this and i will, it’s ok for it not to happen overnight.
What I love right now: I love that I am taking on new challenges and choosing to grow.
Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.
How I got Stronger this week: I spent the first half of this week in Australia, working as much as possible. I am writing this earlier than usual, as I am on the way back. The rest of this week will call on my strength even more as I get in the morning of David’s birthday and will spend the day with him and then have my inlaws in town and spend all of Saturday at the kids’ school volunteering and Sunday having a birthday for David while I am quite jetlagged. So I expect it to be a tough weekend for me and I will have to tap in to my reserve of strength.
Top Goals Review: got organized + had lots of face to face meetings. i did yoga every single morning (and cardio!) and i am off to celebrate D’s birthday!
I celebrate: going back home! d’s birthday!
I am grateful for: being able to travel for work. having workmates that are wonderful and really really grateful for my boys.
Karen’s Points: I did pretty well on the exercise but that’s pretty much it.
A Change I embraced: still going on the decaf. it was hard here but i managed it. i am proud of myself.
I let go of: being able to do some personal tasks like sketching. i spent my time socializing and resting.
Core Desired Feelings Check-in:
- Fresh: new adventures this weeked for david’s birthday!
- Magical: This week’s magical moment is celebrating my boy’s day.
- Lighter: i am working on letting some things go. it’s hard but i am really trying.
- True: i’ve stayed true to my values and kept mum still and it’s so so hard.
Where I chose Joy: i chose to balance socializing with reading and resting. finding my peace and joy.
I showed up for: my workmates. both from sydney and seattle.
A Mistake I made this week: my biggest mistake has been not to quit this thing at my kids’ school. i hope to rectify that next week.
What I tolerated this week: another 15-hour flight. jetlag, parties, commitments all coming my way.
My mood this week was: tired. at times too worried. but i am ready to start letting things go.
I forgive myself for: not being able to quit but i will keep trying.
What I love right now: I love that I am going back home.
Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.
How I got Stronger this week: This was a weird week because I got on an airplane on Wednesday night and got off the airplane Friday morning in Sydney so I lost a day this week (I get to have it back next week when I fly back.) But even with that, I still exercised everyday that I wasn’t on an airplane. Even while here in the hotel. I’ve also started Yoga while I’m here. I’ve spent time with the kids this week, helping them work. I’ve been doing what needs to be done at work. And I’ve showed up for my husband and my friend.
Top Goals Review: figured out details. connecting with coworkers. finished whole30 yay! didn’t quit yet. reading a lot. got lunches done and made sheet for jake! woot!
I celebrate: being here in sydney and getting to spend a little time on the beach.
I am grateful for: my husband who is taking care of everything at home, making it possible for me to be here and trust that all is ok.
Karen’s Points: I got full points until the end of January. Now that I am off whole30 and not at home, February hasn’t been as diligent. I plan to restart when I am home.
A Change I embraced: yoga here in hotel room was fun.
I let go of: reacting to the way some interactions have been at work. I’ve just been taking it easy.
Core Desired Feelings Check-in:
- Fresh: new adventures this week with a weekend alone in sydney.
- Magical: This week’s magical moment is being so close to the water. it’s my soul place.
- Lighter: i am really enjoying the summer in sydney.
- True: i’ve stayed true to my values and kept mum.
Where I chose Joy: i chose to go to the beach and hear the waves splash. joy joy joy.
I showed up for: my friend, my husband, and my son this week.
A Mistake I made this week: Nothing wild is coming to my mind at this moment.
What I tolerated this week: a 15-hour flight. a weekend alone. while it’s lovely here it’s also really lonely without my boys.
My mood this week was: grateful. a bit worried but trying to keep things in perspective.
I forgive myself for: not getting as much done this weekend. I chose to read and relax instead.
What I love right now: I love resting in bed while I am pretty jet lagged.
Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.
How I got Stronger this week: I exercised every day this week. I went to two body pumps classes. I stretched and rolled, too. I am also still on the Whole 30 and no caffeine. I helped and supported a few people this week and I was there for my kids and my sister’s kids, too. I did something I am pretty scared of at work and it’s going to take a lot of strength to get through it so I am both excited and scared. I showed up for my kids. I spent time taking care of myself and doing things I like and I also spent some quality time with my wonderful husband. I did a lot of shopping for both David and for myself, which is a miracle because I abhor shopping. Very proud of myself. I also went to the dentist and got a mani/pedi. Phew!
Top Goals Review: did the spreadsheets! presos not in cycle yet but will be soon. kept going with routine. semi-made plans for feb. still not feeling like making art and i will give myself a break. might have found a class for Nathaniel. spent a bunch of time with all my boys.
I celebrate: taking chances.
I am grateful for: a bit of shopping. being done with david’s trip shopping (mostly.) being given an opportunity. people who are all watching out for me and have my back.
Karen’s Points: I got full points everyday except for two where I didn’t floss. Though I’ve been pretty wishy washy on the self-care.
A Change I embraced: this week was all about embracing change.
I let go of: being able to get my way 100% of the time.
Core Desired Feelings Check-in:
- Fresh: i took some major fresh steps this week. not ready to share yet tho.
- Magical: This week’s magical moment is the kids’ conferences. oh and finishing calculus with david!
- Lighter: this week felt lighter too because the kids had no school on Friday.
- True: i’ve been trying really hard to speak my truth even though it’s scary. especially at work.
Where I chose Joy: i chose joy with both my kids this week where i said Yes! a lot more.
I showed up for: my friend, her son, my nephews, and my sons this week.
A Mistake I made this week: well i made some decisions this week that i am praying aren’t mistakes. other than that, nothing specific is jumping out at me. (besides my usual yelling and having to apologize daily.)
What I tolerated this week: a lot of unknown. stepping into the unknown. fear of letting others down.
My mood this week was: scared but excited.
I forgive myself for: possibly taking a step that might be harder on my family but something that felt too good to pass up.
What I love right now: i love how i feel so full. like my cup runs over. i am so incredibly grateful. i hope and pray that it sustains.
Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.
How I got Stronger this week: I exercised every day this week and went to two body pump classes. I exercised every day on vacation. I stretched, and rolled and did some form of self-care, too. And still going on the Whole 30 and no caffeine. I do plan to restart sugar and caffeine in February but this is part of starting the year well for me. I also spent a lot of time connecting this week with my friends. Strengthening those bonds. I went on a date night with my husband. At work, I made progress but still paced myself and didn’t let work take over connection, exercise, family, or alone time. I drove 6 hours of the 8 hour trip back from San Diego (which would have been unfathomable just a few years ago.)
Top Goals Review: working on the spreadsheets. okrs are close to done. keeping going with my personal routine. didn’t find a class for Nathaniel but will look this week.
I celebrate: our vacation again this week it was wonderful.
I am grateful for: our date night. we went to see The Shape of Water which was magical.
Karen’s Points: I got full points everyday and I’ve been making a concerted effort to keep up with everything. Some of it is getting repetitive but I am sticking with it for now.
A Change I embraced: I had to figure out how to make exercise and vacation work. But I did. (And whole30, too!)
I let go of: getting work done over the 3-day weekend. i let myself enjoy vacation.
Core Desired Feelings Check-in:
- Fresh: trying to have a fresh perspective on vacation and what it means and what needs to be a part of it (togetherness) and wha doesn’t (bad food.)
- Magical: This week’s magical moment is date night with my husband.
- Lighter: a short week is wonderful, especially when monday is the off day.
- True: i’ve stayed true to my goals and honored my values this week on vacation.
Where I chose Joy: I chose to spend more time with connecting this week and work piled up a bit but there’s always a lot of work so i chose joy.
I showed up for: my friend and my son this week.
A Mistake I made this week: I was rushing out the door this week so when one of the managers was trying to tell me something, I made a quick thank you remark and dashed off. I missed an opportunity to have a deeper conversation and possibly came off as rude. I did apologize but the conversation opportunity was still missed.
What I tolerated this week: piling email. i have way way too many now.
My mood this week was: rested after vacation. grateful and still taking it slow.
I forgive myself for: yelling very badly when david lost his phone (which was not lost but on the school bus.). i need to get better at this but in the meantime i need to give myself some (a lot of) grace.
What I love right now: I love how I mostly feel calmer than usual. Mostly.
Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.
How I got Stronger this week: I exercised every day this week and also went back to the gym at work and did three Body Pump classes even though I was feeling all sore after the first one. I woke up on Monday morning and it was pitch black, pouring rain, but I still did my short cardio, got dressed and drove in for my 7am class just to drive back home at 8am when it was done. I am so proud of myself. I created more boundaries with some of the volunteer work I do at the kids’ school this week. I also tried to show up for work but also for myself. I’ve been working hard on myself. But even at work, I am working on taking things less personally and panicking less in general.
Top Goals Review: ready for the meeting, went back to the gym and sent off david’s round one. woot!
I celebrate: our mini vacation
I am grateful for: a long weekend
Karen’s Points: I did well this week too. I got full points everyday and I’ve been making a concerted effort to keep up with everything.
A Change I embraced: I quit caffeine this month as well and that’s been challenging even with the tea since I usually drink black tea. I’ve been experimenting with several herbal teas, trying to find one that I like the most.
I let go of: working myself into a frenzy at work. I am trying to pace myself better.
Core Desired Feelings Check-in:
- Fresh: I am exploring what it looks like when I drop my assumptions at work and at home. I have so many things churning in my head at all times and I am trying to pay attention to the noise so I can work on clearing it a bit. It starts with paying attention.
- Magical: This week’s magical moment is beautiful Southern California. The sun, the ocean waves, and the palm trees. Makes me wonder why we ever left San Diego.
- Lighter: I will say that the vacation helps me feel lighter too. Just taking a bit of time off.
- True: I’ve been speaking up at work and trying to make sure I am honest with my perspective.
Where I chose Joy: I didn’t want to take a vacation, i am always happier at home. Or so I think. It’s not that I am happier at home, it’s that I am happy enough at home and inertia is always strong with me. So I chose joy by taking my family on vacation.
I showed up for: for Jake this week.
A Mistake I made this week: This is not unique to this week but I made it this week so I am going to document. When I feel like I am disappointing someone or letting them down, it really makes me trigger. So then I go on and on yelling or being upset because this other person put me in a position where I have to let them down. There are two major things here: if i don’t want to do it then this is part of boundary building and I have to teach myself that i am choosing to let this person down and i can apologize but i don’t need to get all wound up. It’s not about them, it’s about me. And secondly, I need to learn that I am going to let people down and it’s part of life. Ideally I’d do it as little as possible and less to people I love but even then it will happen. I don’t need to make it worse by yelling I can apologize and leave it at that and learn to get comfortable with the feeling of discomfort that will bring.
What I tolerated this week: a lot of non-work related meetings. i had clients and school meetings and it took away the little free time I had.
My mood this week was: i felt energized in the beginning of the week after I went to the gym.
I forgive myself for: reading less this week, there wasn’t enough time. also for being difficult.
What I love right now: I the waves hitting the beach, my favorite nature sound.
Weekly Reflection is a year-long project for 2018. You can read more about my projects for 2018 here.
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projects for twenty twenty-four
projects for twenty twenty-three
projects for twenty twenty-two
projects for twenty twenty-one
projects for twenty nineteen
projects for twenty eighteen
projects from twenty seventeen
monthly projects from previous years
some of my previous projects
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