Around my house.
Today was a rough day. It didn’t really even have a reason to be. It was a collection of little frustrations but they built up inside me and I couldn’t let it go. I could not relieve the frustration no matter how much I tried and I just felt even more frustrated because of it. It crescendoed into something monumentally terrible. And now I feel spent and worn out and dejected. All over nothing. Over stupid, little, insignificant events occurring simultaneously.
My most tender moment came when Nathaniel woke up from his long afternoon nap. I saw his face and my whole being felt a rush of gratitude. I love him so deeply and I am so thankful for my life. I need to learn to focus on the good. I have so much of the good. So so much.
He’s so beautiful. So sweet. So kind. So cute. So loved. His brother, too. So magical.
Happy to be done with today. Tomorrow is another day and it starts fresh.
Note to Self:
I need to learn to let go. Things don’t have to get done immediately. Many of the small things that I obsess over don’t actually matter. They don’t. They certainly don’t deserve to own my life and take over my emotions and mental state like they did today. Life is beautiful. Even when the moment seems challenging. It’s ok to have challenging moments. To accept them for what they are and then to let them go. To be open to something better. Let go and breathe. I need to breathe more. More often. Longer. Breathe.
Three things I’m grateful for today:
1. A new and much anticipated book arrived in the mail today. I am really looking forward to reading it.
2. The group-chat functionality of Google Chat. Four friends chatting about vacation is extra fun when we can do it all at the same time.
3. Heating. It may seem silly but it’s been really cold here and the house we lived in last year had a lot of holes in it so it would never get warm enough. We’d see our breath a lot in the winter. I am thankful that this house is well sealed and has a good heating system and I am so warm and cozy in it.
So sorry you had a lousy day.
I have them too sometimes, even though there is much in my life to appreciate.
BTW I love the photo of Nathaniel in your kitchen, I haven’t seen what it looks like before now.