Weekly Reflection 2017 – 23

How I shone this week: I’ve been having major revelations for the last few weeks and it’s been quite the shift. This week came with some wonderful moments and some tough ones. The moments where I shine were so acute and wonderful and then times when I fail to shine are also equally acute. I shone with my kids on David’s culmination Monday night and then again at school all day Tuesday. I shone at work while I am trying to drive this challenging process. I shone on Friday when I showed up for a party for Nathaniel that I really didn’t want to go to. I’m trying. I am showing up. 

Things I wanted to get Done:  This Saturday I was still bruised from my “not shining” moments so I decided not to work. But I think I still did okay on my todo list. With the exception of exercise, I am doing well.

• Work:  Not a lot of documenting still but I’ve done the planning meetings, data collection, organizing.
• Personal: No exercise this week at all. I did a lot of journaling and a lot of art. I’ve been eating okay so far, too. Not fantastic but not terribly.
• Family: Took photos! Went to culmination, went to school. 

I celebrate: hello summer!

I am grateful for: the art, the journaling, the revelations!

I nourished myself by: taking this weekend off. I rested most of this weekend. thanks to Jake who did all the driving around for the kids! 

Reflecting on my worries:  the feedback was confusing and i am not thrilled but it culminated in something that i am hoping is positive. culmination went amazingly. i was tired friday but it was totally okay. I am on my way back to being well and should be 100% (hopefully) before my flight.

I let go of: perfection this week. 

Core Desire Check-in (bold, mindful, nourish, love):

• bold: i didn’t answer the question from last time. still focusing at work. maybe i can journal about this question this week?
• mindful: mindful of my upcoming work trip and all the preparation work I have to put into it.
• nourish: how do I nourish myself with exercise? I need to understand what this means to me. 
• love: i feel so much love for the little girl I was this week. all the revelations have been putting things into perspective for me and for her.

What made me laugh this week: the boys. tv. friends at school. friends at work.

What I tolerated this week: being sick still. 

My mood this week was: harried and tired and sad at times. 
I forgive myself for: having a tough time with this one issue.
What I love right now: my current book.

I cannot end this week’s reflection without saying that I received an email from my friend Cheryl’s son this week telling me that she passed. I’ve been friends with Cheryl for over twenty years and she was one of the most supportive, loving, kind and amazing people I knew. She left me comments here all the time, she sent me emails, she inspired me and she made my life better by being in it. I will miss her for all the days of my life and I am so incredibly grateful for having had her in my life. You are always in my heart, Cheryl. I love you.