Weekly Reflection 2017 – 03

Three ways I shone this week:

• One: I gave someone a second chance. Even though it was more trouble than I would have liked.
• Two: I spent quality time with both kids doing a bit of programming with each.
• Three: I showed up and did my best to listen and be present with friends.

I celebrate: driving very close to the city and back in the rain for my kids. it was brave and hard for me but i did it.
I am grateful for: jake this week. he covered for me on tuesday when i worked really long and hard. and took us to david’s school on friday night when i really was glad to get a bit of rest and not drive.
I nourished myself by: having warm tea, eating well, getting rest.
Reflecting on my worries: i was worried about not getting enough done, but i did all i had to do. i sent the emails and their usefulness will be visible over time. i wrote some code to automate the tracking so i am hopeful that it will be manageable. i didn’t mess up my interview at all. it did rain but we survived it. i was tired. but i didn’t mess anything up. as for the energy, i am definitely feeling tired but i think i have to solve this one in a different way. there were plenty of things i didn’t worry about that did happen. but these items i had worried about did not.

I let go of: journaling this week. it just wasn’t meant to be 🙁

Core Desire Check-in (bold, mindful, nourish, love): 

1. At work, the boldness paid off, i feel delighted. In life, i wish i were bolder this past week.
2. I was mindful of a rare case where David asked for something he doesn’t usually ask for and we all showed up for it.
3. I am nourishing myself. I am noticing how hard it is and how i still crave chocolate and soda. thinking through what all this means for me.
4. And love. I think I did well on love this week. Better. I was patient and kind several times when it would have been easier not to.

What made me laugh this week: nothing is coming to mind. is that bad?
What I tolerated this week: a very frustrating thursday. i think i am still tolerating it.
My mood this week was: once i made it to mid-week i think it all went downhill. i was grumpy and impatient and frustrated. i then felt disappointed in myself. and i haven’t recovered yet.
I forgive myself for: being grumpy. i am planning to take the time to look for the lessons here.
What I love right now: i love these lovely flowers sitting on my desk.

Here’s to a wonderful week four!