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Those Damned Sheep

Why can't I be one of those people who can live on four hours of sleep a night?

I spent most of last weekend putting my sister's present together, which meant that I got very little sleep. Specifically, on Saturday night I slept around four hours and I had six hours or more on Friday, Sunday and last night. Even with all that balanced sleep surrounding one night of not so great sleep, I couldn't keep my mind from wandering all weekend and all day yesterday. I dozed off several times during my architecture class.

Though, in my defense, the teacher is a really soft-spoken, slow moving woman who turns off the lights to show slides in a warm room. All those coupled with the 7:30pm class time should be enough to put any normal human to sleep. I spent the last four days like a zombie, walking from class to class. The funny thing is, I am awake and aware during most of my classes, but any free moment is like a permission to crash.

The final jolt came when I fell asleep during my volunteer job today. I mean, I really slept. Can't even be sure I didn't snore. (Thankfully my officemates are deaf and prolly didn't hear my snorts.) I was knocked out for only 20 minutes or so and I woke up on my own, but it was quite embarrassing, to say the least. (As an even funnier side note, my boss, John, had changed the screen saver on the computer to say "Karen, Wake up!" which was totally appropriate today!)

After that sleeping episode, I had to go through two more classes and neither was in English. Pure torture.

People tell me to stop taking so many classes or doing so many things, but that's not the point. I don't want to stop doing a million things; I want a body that can support the active mind I have. I want to be able to sleep three to four hours a night, so I can have more time to study and read. I hate that I need sleep so badly.

My neuroscience teacher says that you can actually go insane from lack of sleep. Hmm I wonder who thought that was a good design decision?

Previously? Paranoid.


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