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RECLAIMING A SONG
A few years ago, I wrote about how music gets intertwined with memories. There are thousands of songs that within seconds transport me a certain time, location, and emotion. Once a song is infused with a certain feeling, it's pretty much impossible for me to disassociate it ever again.

But not fully impossible.

There's a Dixie Chicks song that I used to love. I was listening to it on continuous repeat for a few weeks. It just turned out that I also had some things happening in my life that were less than ideal and beyond my control at the same time. So, pretty quickly, this song got entangled with the situation and got associated with very sad and frustrating feelings. Months passed and I still could never listen to this song without reliving the events of that time and I quickly started avoiding the song. Which really bummed me out since it was a fantastic song with amazing lyrics that would have otherwise made me feel stronger and inspired.

Last night, on my way home, the song came up on my ipod and, to my surprise, instead of the typical resentment, I felt the sense of strength and empowerment I had felt before the song had gotten associated with the sad events. I had finally completely given up my resentment and finally moved on so it allowed me the space to reclaim the song that I loved.

What a great way to feel the power of closure.

September 08, 2007 | art & music & film | share[]
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