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This was an imaginary compilation that I was assembling in my head; all my happiest and proudest moments, cut together into a five-minute edited greatest hits of my life.

"What would you have in your lifetime highlights video, Neal?" I asked him.

He thought for a while and said nervously "Getting a B in my geography O' level."

He looked hurt when I burst out laughing.

"Oh come on..." I said, "You've got to do better than that. You can't have that on your tombstone - Here lies Neil Evans. He got a B in his geography O' level. What have you done that you really loved and will always remember? What are you really proud of?" - John O'Farrell, Walking into the Wind.


Reading the above dialogue made me think of what would be in my five-minute movie.

Happiest moments are easy: getting into Carnegie Mellon, getting my green card, most of my days with Jake, and my sister's giving birth to my twin nephews.

Most of my happiest moments revolve around school, reaching a goal I'd been striving for for a long time, and my family.

The proudest, however, are a bit more complicated. I'm proud of my family and their accomplishments, most importantly their incredible capacity for love. But this movie is supposed to be about my proud moments. So I'm not sure their achievements qualify.

My first proud moment would probably be the same as a happy one. Getting into a college in United States, especially one that has a good reputation for computer science, was a huge accomplishment for someone with my grades and it was something I'd been dreaming about since I was twelve.

During college, I've done a few things I'm proud of, but one of my most taxing moments was when a male friend of one of my residents (I was a Resident Assistant on two floors of an all-girl section of one of the dormitories) was depressed. Suicidal is probably more accurate. I didn't really know this boy all that well but he'd been on my floor before and I spent most of the evening talking to him and I stayed in that room and listened to him for hours. While I'm totally aware that it most likely has nothing to do with my actions or words, seeing that boy around a few days later and having him hug me made me feel proud of myself. That would probably make it to my video.

So would graduation. I am the first member of my family to graduate from college. My mom dropped out of high school and my dad out of college. My sister didn't even attempt at college. So graduating and getting my undergraduate and graduate degrees simultaneously was a very proud moment for my family and me.

Most recently, I am proud of the fact that I didn't let New York and the investment banking life get to me. That I had the balls to give up a lot of money and reduce my work to part-time so that I could do more volunteer work.

I have a long way to go. I want my life to be full of happy and proud moments. I want to look back and say that I had a great life and I did everything I wanted to do. I want to make sure I had the guts to live it to its fullest.

What would go on your five-minute film?

Previously? Intelligent.


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