I love those little feet.



And this smiling face. This is as David sings and dances around so entertain him.

I must say that while Nathaniel baby is considerably easier than David was (partly cause I've done all this before), it's still been a rough few months here. I haven't slept a full night in six months (I wasn't able to sleep towards the end of my pregnancy at all). Nathaniel doesn't like being put down at all. He nurses almost the whole time while he sleeps. If I try to unlatch he wakes up and cries really hard. If I put him down to grab some food or even to pee, he is really miserable and within minutes, he's sweating from anger.

I am certainly worrying less this time around and having a real maternity break has been wonderful but even with that, I find myself tired too often. And frustrated that I am unable to do what I want to do. My head is spinning with ideas that I have no time to execute. Even though I know that he will eventually sleep through the night and even take naps by himself, that time seems unfathomably far away. And I keep reading about other people's kids sleeping and I feel like I am messing it all up all over again.

But then he smiles. He is so incredibly cute. I hug him hard and I am thankful for each and every moment.