David at 7 months
This is actually taken a few days before he turns seven months. And it's obviously not taken by me since I'm in it. Well it could have used time-lag but it doesn't. Jake took it. It's at the mall by our house where we often take daily walks to get some of the beautiful San Diego air.

Amnesia by Choice
Let the bitching begin.

Two weeks ago a friend and I were talking on the phone. Out of the blue, the conversation turned ugly and he started asking me weird questions and getting increasingly angry/demanding. I had no idea where this was coming from and tried to take it with a grain of salt and even apologized for actions that weren't wrong. I tried to soothe him but it was no go. He didn't realize how upset he was and wouldn't admit to being angry. After a while more of unloading on me, he hung up.

A few days later, he called me back and chatted away like nothing happened. At first I was taken aback and wondered whether I imagined the whole thing. I considered bringing it up myself but I didn't want to rehash any of the issues so I left it alone and decided to wait. He and I talk several times a day so I figured it would eventually come up.

Here we are two weeks and at least ten conversations later and the issue never ever came up again. None of: "I'm sorry , I don't know what came over me." or "I must have been losing my mind." or "Other stuff was making me upset, I am sorry I took it out on you." I would have apologized but honestly, I hadn't said a word and this wasn't an argument as much as it was his unloading on me. So I went from flabbergasted to fuming.

I can totally understand that we all have bad days and times when we're overly stressed. I can alos understand that we often take it out from those closest to us. But there's no excuse for not acknowledging such an occurence. I was quite hurt, sad, and worried after that exchange and his not acknowledging it makes me feel like all the actions were justified. Even if he'd called me and continued to yell at me, I would have prefered that over lets-act-like-nothing-happened. WTF?

People and actions like that irk me. We all fuck up at times but let's be a man (to use a really stereotypical phrase) about it. There's nothing wrong with calling a good friend and apologizing. There's a lot to be respected in humility and candor. And there's no fucking thing to be proud of in feeling like if we don't ever bring it up, it will be like it never happened. It did happen. Even if you want to act otherwise.

I am not waiting for an apology or even an explanation. I am happy to and already have forgiven him. I just want him to acknowledge it so I don't feel like my feelings aren't worthless to him. Mayne it's asking for too much but I cannot stand acting. I like things out in the open. I like honesty. I like candid. Bring it on. If you put it out there, we may be able to resolve it. If you don't, we never will.

Seven Months
I cannot believe that David's already been out of my belly for seven months. I was looking at photos from the first few weeks a couple of days ago and I realized that I've already forgotten what he looked like then. I am so glad I have all the photographs and the movies I've taken. He's made huge progress in the last few months:

• he can now sit up completely unassisted and seems to like it a lot. he will still fall back sometimes and a few times he's managaed to pull himself back up to sitting but more often, he doesn't.
• he started solids about a month ago. since then he's had: rice cereal, barley, oatmeal, pears, peas, winter squash, sweet potatoes, prune juice, avocado, mango, and yogurt. this week we plan to introduce summer squash and later carrots and peaches. so far, no allergic reactions to anything.
• he still has no teeth and no signs of any coming
• he makes a lot of sounds, seems to love to grunt but also says da-da-da-da, ta-ta-ta, ba-ba-ba, daddy, and a few others.
• his eyes are still quite blue and appear to be here to stay.
• he still doesn't like being on his belly and does not appear to be anywhere near crawling. if he's playing with a toy and I kick it away a bit, he'll simply pick another to play with.
• he does like standing up and being on his feet though he can't do it alone.
• he usually sleeps from 6:30pm to 4:30am with a snack at 4:30 and then goes back down till 6:30am. his naps vary from 45 minutes to 2.5 hours and from twice a day to three times.
• he smiles and laughs almost constantly. when he sees his dad or me, he will do a full-body bounce and smile wide.
• his pincer grab is almost perfect. he can pick up something as small as a cheerio. when he picks up stuff, he circles his wrist to look at it from all angles.

That's all I can think of for now. He's a pure joy to have around and a fantastic boy all-around. Happy seven months, David!