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WEBLOG THOUGHTS - PART I
I've been thinking a lot about personal sites lately. Journals, photo journals, and blogs.There are certain pages I've been reading for over three years and cases where when I discovered a site I liked, I've read archives that go back multiple years. Over the course of all this reading, I've stitched together bits and pieces of information and formed an image of this person I never met and might never meet. The interesting, and a bit scary, part is that I have an emotional attachment to these people I never met. I feel like since they give me a sneak peek into their thoughts, their lives, their days, I form some sort of a connection with them. It's a commitment to check someone's page daily and read all about it even though you don't even know the sound of this person's voice. Most personal pages are one-sided conversations, even the ones that allow you to comment. The comments open up the page to a bit of a community feature and allow you to tell the writer your opinions on a subject matter that's being explored or a sentiment that was expressed. However, most of the time, the site owner doesn't then end up having two-way conversations about the issue. The comment posters leave their two cents and the comments become a collection of other people's opinions on the same subject. I don't mean to imply that it's not interesting or valuable to read other people's comments on an issue I find interesting. I am always thrilled when I see a comment on my site and eager to read the reader's opinion, thoughts, or feelings. I am trying to point out that comments feature doesn't necessarily bring you closer to knowing the person behind the web site. The drawback of consistently reading a web site is that I genuinely feel like I know the person who's writing those words. I feel like I relate to him. I feel like I can read her thoughts. The fact is I don't and I can't. The person who posts is picking and choosing his or her posts. Many days , the person is choosing not to post. When reading a personal side, I get to see only one side of the poster: the side he or she chooses to show. I think that's why it feels like such a let down when a person decides to take a break and not post. Suddenly, the door that I had to this person's life is shut and I am faced with the reality that I don't know the poster at all. I don't mean anything to this person. They have real friends. Real people with whom they spend their time. I always get disappointed when I send an email to someone whose site inspired me or with whom I wanted to share something that I thought he or she might like and I don't hear back from the person. It's not because I feel I have a certain right or that my email was really important. It's mostly because these people put stuff up on the web and want people to read it. And then when people read it and want to share back, I feel it's rude to ignore them. Those are the people for whom you're writing. Honestly, if you're just writing for your five friends, there's no reason to put it up on the web, and there are few cases where people just want a site for their circle of friends and don't care if anyone else reads it or not. Most people, however, prefer to have readership. It's like a writer who publishes a book but doesn't ever want to receive letters from his readers. Remember when you were young and someone inspired you? Imagine if you actually had the guts to write to that person? How many days did you stand by the mailbox, hoping they wrote back to you? How many days till you became bitter and cynical? We all have people we admire for a plethora of reasons. We all, sometimes, feel the need to make a connection. I think the least a person could do is acknowledge that need and thank the person for finding something in him or her to be inspired about. (yes, I am ending with a preposition, so there.) You never know, the few words you write back thoughtlessly, might make that person's day. Ps: For those of you wondering, no this isn't an angry response to a recent occurrence. It's just my way of hoping we can make the world a little bit less cynical, one day at a time. PEOPLE WATCHING
I've been a member of metafilter since September 8, 2000. RELATIVE REALITY
There are many theories of reality. WEB PEOPLE
When Jake and I bought tickets to go to West Palm Beach, Florida, I emailed the three people I'd love to meet. PUBLIC ANONYMITY
My friend Manu talks about writing personal entries. THINK THE WEB IS FULL OF CRAP?
Okay, I apologize ahead of time and give you fair warning that what you're about to read is something I feel very strongly about and since I'm extremely emotional, this might be painful to read. It might take me some time to get to my point. It also will probably repeat some issues I mentioned in previous posts. You've been warned. I've never considered myself a web person. I've been familiar with the web for a very long time and had a web page back when Mosaic was the cool browser. I even did an art project in college about intermingling art and web technology. But until recently, I used the web mostly as a tool to get information. I read newspapers, I looked up movie locations and reviews, I researched stuff, and that was about it. I can't remember the first weblog I read. I can't remember how I discovered most of the sites that are now part of my daily routine. But, somehow, I found a site and started following the links until I discovered a whole new world. I'm still not a web person. I guess what I mean when I say "web person" is someone whose primary job/interest is the web. I love the web. I love writing my site. I love reading other people's sites. But I have a job that doesn't use any web technology. I volunteer at an organization that doesn't have computers in each room, let alone dial-up access. Most of my friends don't know HTML and almost none read my site. A few close ones do but many don't. The thing is if the web were like the real world, it would be extremely difficult for me to have my own little corner. Imagine walking into a magazine's office and asking to have your own section. Or an art gallery to have your work displayed. Most of the world is very structured and segregated. There are committees that decide the value of your work. College admissions offices tell you whether you deserve to get in. Publishers decide the future of your book. It doesn't matter whether you poured your soul into a piece or not, if the woman at the publishing house had a bad morning, your novel will not see the light of day. The real world is full of rejection. Full of "you're not good enough", "you lack the necessary background", and many other forms of limitations. There are millions of preconceived notions, prescribed patterns you have to fit, roadmaps you have to follow, asses you must kiss, before you're even given a chance. But it takes you ten minutes to setup your own web page. This little corner will let you show off your novel, photographs, artwork, or many other incredible talents. The web allows you to bring people together in the most awe-inspiring ways. It allows you to meet someone halfway around the world who shares the same interests and can broaden your mind instantaneously. Where else can you do that? Sure I can write my words in a diary and still get them out, but this way I get to share them with the whole world. I put myself out there and I get rewarded. It's like getting your work displayed, not just in a small gallery, but to the whole world. Why are criteria and elitism the only harbingers of success? And what's so terrible about trying? Edison said, "Genius is one percent inspiration and ninety-nine percent perspiration." And yet, people get stifled so early on. Your lack of talent is recognized and hammered into you at an early age. "You really can't draw, honey, why don't you try being a biology major instead?" I remember an anecdote I read in a novel about the author visiting a kindergarten and asking the students who could draw and all the hands shot up. The author then went to a college classroom and asked the same question and very few hands were raised. Somewhere between childhood and adulthood, we're taught to stop trying. Since badness is discouraged and we're bad, we should just give it all up. And after all this rambling, I'll come out and say my point. Earlier this week someone made a comment on a metatalk thread that drove me absolutely crazy. It doesn't matter who as such comments have been made in several places and instances, by many different people. These people think that the web should emulate the elitism of the real world. They feel that your having your own homepage is unacceptable unless it's perfect. And before you ask, yes, of course, they happen to be the judges of material that qualifies as perfect. They believe letting you have your own web site overpopulates the web with crap. Aren't they fucking nice? The thing is, I totally understand the right to judge something that was submitted to your inspection. If you have a site where you post submissions and someone enters and you don't like their work, you have every right to turn it down and you don't even need to give a reason, because it's your site and you can do whatever you damn please. This is no different than if I were sending my novel to Random House and they refused to publish it. At the end of the day, by accepting your work, they are agreeing to put their name on your work and if they don't like it, they should have the right not to give you their name. Totally fair. Not letting people make their own pages, however, is not. Assuming you should get to choose who's deserving of having a web page is ridiculous. It's nothing but pompousness. The great thing about using the web is that you get to choose the sites you go to. So here's my little message to the people who feel that the web is getting diluted with crap: "Surf elsewhere and shut the fuck up." Previously? Reflection. END OF THE WEB?
Just in case you were thinking life is getting better, I'm here to assure you that's not the case. Saturday, Jake made some real yummy Spanish rice for me and I decided to end my meal with the most delicious chocolate on this planet. As I'm enjoying this decadence, I notice something crunchy. I take out pieces of what look like bone from my mouth but decide not to worry. I'm enjoying my chocolate now and I can't be bothered. Until four seconds later when my chocolate experience is over and I feel something funny in my mouth. Guess what? It wasn't a bone. I ate my filling. I had a temporary crown filling on the upper left corner of my mouth and it's no longer there. I now have a huge hole in that very spot. I contact my dentist who tells me not to eat anything hot or cold until I can get into his office. So here I am, still couch-bound and now with a pounding tooth as well as the grinding, stinging feeling on my back. Loving life! I remember that when I read Meg's comments, I was thinking about how much I agree. It's amazing how much and quickly I've managed to integrate many web-based services into my life. I don't want them to go away. Having read Heather and Caterina in the last two days, I feel like things are slipping and I want to hold on. As much as I've enjoyed taking advantage of the Internet boom on a user level, I'm not and never really have been a true part of the web-based career world. Considering the highly technical school I attended, it’s weird but I can only think of one real close friend who started his own firm and ended up selling it to a bigger company, making a lot of money as a result. I remember being extremely happy for him. This friend worked extremely hard, developed a great piece of software and got what he deserved. While I laughed at the other people buying stock in companies that barely existed, I marveled in my friend’s good fortune. Besides him, I don't have any close friends who work in the Internet industry, so I haven't had the annoying conversations with millionaires who certainly don't deserve it and I don't know anything about the stupid VCs who accelerated and augmented everything. I also don't personally know the people who are now losing their jobs because of the hype. I understand that some ideas were stupid and should never have gotten funded but some of the others were great and should stay around. It's not fair that we're in this 'all or nothing' move. How can all the Internet or web based companies be bundled into one thing? Why does it have to be that they are all worth millions or nothing? It's weird. My life doesn't depend on it, neither does my job or the jobs of my close friends, but reading all the recent comments, I feel frustrated and angry. I don't want this to go away. I don't want people to give up. The amount of creativity that has exploded in the last few years had made my life so much better that the idea of not having it makes me truly depressed. For those of you who did know a millionaire snotty friend who got rich from holding stocks or options on a moronic idea, you can now rest in peace that those days are over and the fact that you didn't take that road did finally pay off. But for all the others, I'm praying that your good intentions and amazing courage will pay off, too. Cause you deserve it. PORTAL I've spent a major part of today going through brig's portal and I must say there are a large number of weblogs out there. Obviously, expressing one's thoughts is not a new hobby by any means, but it's interesting to me that many of the sites have the same links. I wonder if that means that the people behind the pages are interested in similar subject matter. Or does it mean that the people are doing what they think will get the hits to their page? Just wondering. I also noticed that the list of 'my favorite blogs' varies only slightly amongst pages. What do these people have that the others don't? I wonder if weblogging has gotten to be like high school where you're either 'in' or you're not. How do you get in? Maybe it's all just random and most likely, it doesn't even matter. I guess I am just curious cause I just started this journey and I like to analyze things to death. |
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